Hello Again!

I'm back people! After for two weeks of not being around in the cyberworld, I had done stuff which I planned to do before my freshman year in La Salle ended. I went to the mountains to be a monk. I meditated and reflected a lot to have a peace of mind and to find myself as well, although I didn't shave my head. People, of course, I'm only kidding. The real reason was that our Internet connection gave way or rather, gave up. Well, I only stayed up in my room and isolated myself from the real world. Nothing really exciting happened. I created a world of my own. I went to National Bookstore and I bought five books (novels). I read until the wee hours of the morning. Honestly, I felt like a nerd or a geek without a pair of eye glasses and braces. However, I realized that reading was also good because it enhances and widens our vocabulary. Sometimes, I played badminton outside our house to breathe a fresher air and to burn carbs too. Haha.

Oh well, I had fun last week! Auntie Sari had her birthday party at Crustacia's in Powerplant (2nd Level) and we had a very sumptuous dinner. We ate crabs and a lot of seafood. The food was really yummy. We shall eat there again! Haha. On the other hand, I had an out-of-the-province trip with my two friends, Maggie and James. I enjoyed being with them for one whole day. Thank you very much, Maggie and James, for making my day happy and extra special! =)

I would like to share with you some of the pictures Maggie, James, and I took last Friday. Good times. =)

By the way, Happy Mother's Day to your moms! Ciao! =)

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So True

I always like reading blogs because it makes me aware of what's been happening or going on around me. Reading blogs keep me updated about stuff and it lets me know more about people. One of my favorite blogs is Bianca Gonzales'. I like the way she writes. Her entries are interesting, full of sense, and eye-openers. Please try to visit it if you have time. I tell you, when you read her blogs, you'll discover yourself nodding your heads, agreeing to it, and say, "Oo nga naman...hmmm...". =)

Her latest entry is about broken hearts. I'm not a broken-hearted person because I've never been in a relationship yet. And I think I'm still too young for it. Haha. =)

As always, I agree with Bianca. I can relate to her blog as I look at it with a different point of view. For me, it doesn't only focus on broken hearted people who lost wonderful relationships with their dear loved one. I think, it is also applicable to some situations regarding relationships with friends and family, and even stuff connected with school...that is why I can relate with her.

According to her, when you feel broken hearted, "no advice said to you will make you feel better...hugs will comfort you, concerned texts will make you smile, but no amount of advice will make you feel better...unless you decide to let it make you feel better." This is so true. I experienced this when I was in third year highschool. My friends made an attempt to comfort me because I wasn't one of the merit awardees that year. It was my first time and I really felt bad. Some of their advices even made me feel worse because I felt irresponsible, though some of them gave me inspiration and strength to do better next time. Like what she said, "Of the hundred cliche lines thrown at you at an attempt to make you feel better...there will be a few lines a few major lines that will speak to you and touch your heart and soothe your soul. Those pieces of advice, you hold on to." On the other hand, I like the way she said about prayer and God...that God can heal broken all things broken, including our heart. "...when your heart is peaceful, give thanks. When your heart is troubled, still give thanks and ask for deliverance. When your heart is shattered into a million pieces, still give thanks, and ask that you may learn whatever life lesson it is that He wants you to learn. In both high and low, give thanks, because it is one of the surest things in life that God only works for the good of those who love Him." Yes, prayer really works. I also realized that God made us feel this way, not because He wanted us to feel miserable, but to let us see more good things beyond whatever made us feel sad, and to think positive too. It is not yet the end of the world. Our broken hearts may not be healed at a fast rate of time, but it will heal...soon. Healing takes time. And don't forget to remember, there's still a rainbow after every storm. =) When it comes to moving on, she said, "...go through it. Go and let it out. Cry before you sleep, cry when you wake up, cry in the bathroom, cry to your friends...make senti all you want. Do it all. Don't let anybody stop you... I know you feel that it won't, that the day you will be okay will never come, but it will. have faith, it will". Again, this is so true. Going back to my story when I was in third year, as far as my memory was concerned, I cried one whole week because I couldn't get over it. I really cried my heart out then after that week, I felt better and happier. Now, it only remains as a part of my highschool life...my highschool memories.

Through this experience and Bianca Gonzales' blog, I learned three important lessons in life: Never give up. Think positive. And always have faith and trust in God. =)

Good afternoon everyone! Thank you for reading! =)

*source: (superbianca.blogspot.com)*

The Bookworm

Three nights ago, I decided to be a bookworm. Because I wasn't able to sleep, I read Message in a Bottle by Nicholas Sparks again. Unfortunately, I didn't finish the book and I never opened it since then. I felt that it has no thrill at all because I already know the story. But how about Harry Potter or A Walk to Remember? I read those books for...the nth time. I was never bored nor felt sleepy while reading them. These books are my favorites though. Aww. I want to go to National Bookstore, Powerbooks, or Fully Booked just to buy new books...new novels. There are a lot of nice books out there...and I think they're waiting for me. I have tons of time to read books since I'm on vacation. Haha. And most of all, I hope whatever catches my attention will be affordable. Haha. Talk about saving money. Haha. Do you have a book to recommend for me to read this summer? *sigh* Good night eveyone! Ciao! =)

The Funny Miracle

Everyone who knows me know that I belong to a very religious family. My aunties are always seen in the church praying at the adoration chapel or attending mass. They are members of the religious organizations in our parish and most of their friends come from the church. Religious indeed, right? Haha. Even when they give me some "pangaral" regarding some of my mischief, they never fail to include religious terms such as praying and thanking God or simply God. And because of this, some people often mistaken me as becoming a nun someday. Oh my! I will never be a nun, for heaven's sake! Haha. I want to be a pre-school teacher, God knows that. Besides, He isn't calling me yet to be one His "shepherds". I hope you get my point. Haha.

Anyway, the first paragraph is just an introduction because I feel that my entry today is related to miracles. Well, at least for my aunties, what I've done today is a miracle. Haha. This is not really a big deal for me but for them, it is. Haha. Okay, I just cleaned my room. Haha. That's the miracle. And for them, cleaning my room is a miracle because during the school year, according to them, my room looks like a jungle or a maze. Also, based from what I've heard, whoever enters my room will be lost. Haha. Ganoon daw kagulo ang room ko. Exaggerated naman. Haha. But now, I think, nobody will be lost because I arranged my things already. =) Auntie Sari even told me, "Magpapa-fiesta ako kasi naglinis ka ng room mo. Good job!" Okaaaay auntie. Haha. Very funny. Haha. =)

Well hey, I do clean my room especially when there's nothing to do. Haha. But sometimes, I get too lazy to clean it because I'd rather surf the net or watch TV. Haha. Like what Ayeen said, "Buhay Bum". *sigh* Right now, I want to go to Disneyland. I really do. Huhu.

Enjoy your summer people! =)

Please, Let Me Explode Only for Today...Thank You..

*Mood: A little bit calm.*

Okaaayyy. I'm really getting tired of hearing about my chubbiness. I know I'm chubby...and I'm aware that I'm becoming chubbier each day. Please, please, please, stop reminding me about it. I'm really really feeling bad about myself na because you keep on telling me about my physical appearance. It also makes me feel bad when you compare me to some slim people who look like models. I know it's not bad to tell me about it. Actually, there's nothing wrong but as in everytime you see me...oh my. Kulang nalang umiyak na ako sa harapan niyo because of what you're telling me almost everyday. I don't even eat breakfast recently, and sometimes I don't eat rice at dinner because I'm aware and conscious na. I just smile to hide my emotions inside. Sometimes I make fun of myself nalang and imagine I look like a siopao or a monay. Haha. Tell me, honestly, what do you want me to do? That is why I miss going to school as well because every morning, I walk to go to school since the dorm where I'm staying is just near it. Walking is my only way of exercising to burn the fats inside my body or rather tummy. I think I should do more exercises and walking since we have enough space here at home to do such stuff, right? Probably that will make you happy. Haaaayyyy naku. Oh well, I'm sorry because I can't help it. Some people are going beyond the limits already, and I think this is the right time to be...uhm...like this. I hope you understand. I'm doing my best to be slim, okaaayyy? Too bad I wasn't able to borrow my friend's Hip Hop Abs dvd. Someone borrowed it na pala. *sigh* On the brighter side, I'm trying to smile now to get rid of wrinkles. I don't want to look very old at my age. Haha. Yikeee, Danadoo! This is the spirit! Haha.

Good night everyone and thank you for sharing your precious time reading my sentiments! =)

Fun Chat

I had a great time chatting with Audrey yesterday and we talked about Pinoy Big Brother Teen Edition Plus. We both like Robi Domingo, the guy from ATENEO. Woohoo! Go Robi! Haha. Though I also like Josef from La Salle. But I like Robi more. I don't know why. Haha. Maybe I like him because of his intelligence and leadership skills. Oh well. This is life. Anyway, the animo fire is still burning with me. I'll keep it burning. Haha. Animo La Salle! =) Let me share with you a part of our YM conversation:

audrey_apacible: ayy ate dana..

audrey_apacible: nanonood ka ng pbb????

dana_canicosa: oo...hahaha...why? :D

audrey_apacible: ang cute ni ROBI!!!!!

audrey_apacible: grabe!!!

dana_canicosa: oo nga...hahaha...mas gusto ko sya kaysa kay josef...wahahaha...

dana_canicosa: :))

audrey_apacible: oo!!

audrey_apacible: hahahaha

dana_canicosa: kahit na medyo seryoso sya...ok lang...hahaha...mikee lee number 2 sya...

***(The End)***

This is really a "kilig-to-the-bones" moment. Haha. Okay, it's corny. Haha. But it is totally a kilig moment. Haha. Robi! Robi! Robi! Haha. It's really nice to have some fun chat with Audrey. I really miss her. If you, by any chance, spend some time with her, I tell you, you'll never be bored. Believe me. =) Thank you Audrey. I had a fun time chatting with you yesterday. See you soon! *hug* =)

We are Survivors

Our first year in DLSU has finally reached its end and I can now proudly say that we survived. At last, we can sleep in peace without worrying about doing projects and studying for our quizzes and finals. We can go somewhere else and enjoy with our family unlike in those times when we stay at home and feel "miserable" because we can't go with them for there are so many requirements needed to be submitted. This is the great time to spend time, to have a vacation, and to party like there's no tomorrow with our family and friends because there are no more projects and term papers that hinder us to do such things. Let us simply enjoy this freedom given to us but we should not take too much advantage of it. Let us be aware of our limitations as well, okie?

So for my fellow students who are now enjoying the time of their lives this summer, Happy Vacation! Cheers! =)

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I'm a Survivor

I know it sounds familiar because you probably heard this title from the Destiny's Child hit song, "Survivor". Anyway, I would like to share with you that I passed all of my subjects with flying colors! Yay! I made it! Hooray! Haha. Despite everything, I'm still in the state of shock. Seriously and honestly, I'm quite surprised! I couldn't believe it! Because of this, like what I realized in my other previous blog entry, I realized that my late night sleeps, cramming, and procrastinating are worth it. I still belong in the list! =) People, I'm very happy to announce that I end my so-called "agony" today. Haha. On the other hand, I think that I deserve the pizza treat from Ocha. Haha. Thank you Ocha! Thank you God too for this wonderful blessing! =)

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Tomorrow: Doom's Day

Tomorrow is not just an ordinary day. It would be a special day, like what Sir Ivan, our Tredone professor who graduated from ATENEO, has always been telling us everyday. My heartbeat's rate is getting faster and faster because in 12 hours', I will know the results--- my performance and my grades in the different subjects I took this term. Honestly, I feel nervous and excited at the same time. Have you ever felt this way every course card distribution day too?

Oh well, I'm hoping but not expecting too much. I trust God and whatever the results are, I would accept them whole-heartedly. As for now, what makes me really excited is the pizza treat of Ocha tomorrow after getting the course cards at Yellow Cab in Taft Avenue, infront of the school. Yay! I wish I deserve the pizza treat though. Haha. =)

By the way, I had my hair cut last Saturday. My hair is so much shorter and I think, I look like a walking siopao or monay. Haha. Anyway, that's life. Haha. See you all soon! =)

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This is my new short hair. I look like a siopao/monay right? Haha.

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Isang Pagbabalik

Kanina, tinawag ako ng aking tiya at may ipinakita siya sa akin. Akala ko, kung ano ang ipapakita niya dahil nakakagulat ang tono ng kanyang boses. Nang ako ay lumapit sa kanya na nagtataka, nagulat ako ng ipinakita niya sa akin ang larawan namin ng aking pinsan sa pamangkin. Tila isang tiyap na pagkakataon dahil naisip ko rin ang pinsan sa pamangkin kong ito kamakailan lamang. Nakakalungkot isipin na hindi ko na siya nakikita at nakaka-usap. Sa tuwing ako ay magpaparamdam sa kanya sa Friendster, nangangamusta, di man lamang siya sumasagot. Kahit nandito lang siya sa Pilipinas, wala na akong balita tungkol sa kanya. Ano na kaya ang nangyayari sa kanya?

Dahil dito, nagsimula na akong magbabalik tanaw sa nakaraan. Naisip ko lang na wala naman masama kung babalikan ko ito. Nakakatuwa at nakakalungkot balikan ang mga pangyayari noong nakalipas dahil sila ay nagdulot sa akin ng masasayang ala-ala. Ngunit, sa kabilang banda, ito rin ay nakakalungkot dahil hindi ko na maibabalik ang mga panahong ito. Hindi ko na sila maaring ibalik…kung pwede lang, ginawa ko na. Pero hindi. Imposible.

Masayang balikan ang nakaraan lalo na kung ang mga ito’y nagbigay ng masasayang ala-ala. Nawawala kahit sandali ang mga bagay na bumabagabag sa ating isipan at nagkakaroon tayo ng inspirasyon upang maging masaya. At, wag din nating kalimutan magpasalamat sa Kanya dahil binigyan niya tayo ng mga ito, na kahit kailan, hinding-hindi natin malilimutan sapagkat sila ay mananatili sa ating mga puso at isipan.

Magandang gabi sa inyong lahat! =)

This is the Start

I can slowly feel it now and I don’t want to expect too much, because I might get disappointed again. I’ve been in this situation once and I can’t describe the feeling because it has given me so much emotional pain. As far as my memory is concerned, I cried one whole week because I couldn’t get over it. I know I’ve tried my best, but not my very best. I should have exerted more effort to save myself from this agony--- the agony of getting a low grade. Exaggerated as it may seem, this is how I perceive getting low grades. Today is the start of my agony, as our course card distribution day is fast approaching. Good luck to me. I hope I am still a dean’s lister.

Miss Hyper

I just want to share with you my funny experience for today. It may not be funny to you but it is really funny for me, so please, bear with me. Haha.

I've been telling you almost everyday that I have a lot of school works to do, like portfolios. So, I went to school this morning to submit everything. I stayed up late, until in the wee hours of the morning, just to finish my ECEDSED porfolio. I also tried to finish my Persef porfolio, but unfortunately, I fell asleep while doing it (I finished it in school). So anyway, when I learned that these portfolios are due tomorrow, I really felt...surprised. In my planner, I wrote there that these porfolios are due today. Haha. Weird. Does it mean I'm not listening to our professor? Haha. Oh well. At least I'm done with everything. I submitted everything. Does it seem I'm excited to submit these porfolios? Haha. My friend is right. I'm "Miss Hyper". (He called me once Ms. Hyper...haha) I only need to worry about our Statlit finals on Thursday (surely, it is on Thursday...haha) and our course-card distribution on Friday and on the 16th. =) Yay! =)

I learned something today: My procrastination and cramming are worth it. And I hope I'll get a good grade. Haha. Sineryoso ko talaga ang paggawa ng mga portfolios na ito. =)

Good night everyone! =)

And the Best Procrastinator- Crammer Award Goes to...

Me!!! Yay!!! Thank you very much. *applause* I haven't started yet with my portfolios. Great! Those portfolios are due on Tuesday. I think I have to cram again tomorrow. Well, I'm getting pretty used to cramming so it won't be such a big deal for me. Anyway, I'm still thinking about my grades for this third term and I feel that they're much lower, in comparison to my grades last term. Though my ECEDSED midterm grade is surprising.ü I hope I pass everything...and no grades less than 2.5 (in DLSU, the highest grade is 4.0 not 1.0).

I was totally drained last Thursday because I took FACLERN finals. It was our group's choice because we wanted to get a higher and better grade. So, I studied on the day itself and I forgot how I survived the exam. Haha. I felt bad too because I forgot to put that "when children perform good in school, they become more motivated to study well, which may result to becoming more competent with their classmates too..." in my write-up. Geez, I only remembered it on my way home. Sad. Additional points pa naman un. Sayang talaga. Haha. I came home late (from Manila to Laguna) because I finished the exam at around 7pm. I arrived here at around 8:30pm, ate dinner fastly, then did my reflection for ECEDSED final paper on the last minute because Mau told me to email it by 9-10pm. Whew. Beat that! Haha. Then last Friday, I almost forgot to email Mye about our individual reflection for ECEDLOG. I also did that on the last minute before 9pm. Good thing Danielle told me that she's still online so I sent it to her thru YM. Wow...if there's an award for the best procrastinator or crammer, I think, I deserve it. Haha.

Okay, this is all for today. I'll try to sleep early so I could wake up early tomorrow and do my portfolios. I really have to finish them before 6pm tomorrow. And oh, I have to study for Statlit finals too. Oh my. Haha. =) Good night! Ciao! =)

This will be Good-bye...

It's difficult to forget a person who's been a big part of your life. Though I suppose, this is the right thing to do, especially if the person you like doesn't like you back. I was thinking about Mr. Loyalty this past few days and auntie told me that maybe, he's galit because he feels that pinagpipilitan ko ang sarili ko sa kanya. Ouch. I guess it's true. The truth hurts. So, I think, this is the time to really let him go, as I'm trying to let go of the past. The time has come for me to move on and open up again to somebody else who is worthy and deserving to be liked and loved.

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Mr. Loyalty, (and if you're reading this), thank you for everything. I'm letting you go now. I have nothing against you because you had been good to me, in a way. I'm also thanking God for giving me this chance to know you. You're one of the best gifts He has given me. I don't feel any bitterness, because I already learned to accept that you and I are not really meant for each other. I realized that this is the right thing to do, and this is good for the both of us. Let's keep the good memories and forget about the bad ones. I'm sorry if I hurt you emotionally.

I believe, this will be a good-bye...my last good-bye. If ever, by any chance, we'll see each other again...things will never be the same [again]. Stay happy always, take good care of her, and God bless you!

***P.S. This will be my last post about you, Mr. Loyalty.***

The Blue Archer

When I woke up this morning, I thought of something and I guess, it was funny and ironic. I was thinking about how to start my portfolios this morning and something just popped in my mind. I was thinking about transferring in Ateneo. What a thought! Haha. I didn't know how I came up with this idea but it makes me really wonder. If I were studying there, probably, I wouldn't be taking up early childhood education but interdisciplinary studies (my third choice, I think, I can't remember...haha) or biology (my first choice, but unfortunately, I didn't make it...it's a quota course) or mass communication (not in my choices...haha).

Oh well. This is just a thought...I wanted to be an Atenean too, though. However, I wouldn't give up my La Salle dream just because in my course, we have a lot of observations and things to do. Ang hirap ng pinagdaanan ko bago ako maging Lasalista. Haha. And, I'm happy in La Salle...so why transfer, right? Because of my course in La Salle, I feel that I'm going back to my childhood again. Fun! Fun! Fun! =)

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I'm getting LSS...thanks to Flo Rida and T-pain...Hahaha...

"Apple bottom jeans, boots with a fur...

the whole club's looking at her...

She hit the floor...

next thing you know...

Shorty got low, low, low, low

low, low, low, low..."

OMG. Haha. =)

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Wait, Teka Lang! Break Muna.

Finals week in DLSU is fast approaching and our professors are really giving us a lot of work to do. So far, I have three or four portfolios to do which are all due next week. I haven't had a nice and good sleep for the past few days that's why I'm in a "soup-mode". Honestly, I'm telling you guys, I'm seriously tired, and if you see me, my eyebags are getting bigger! Haha. I'm really looking forward to having a vacation so I could sleep and rest and enjoy life. I never expected that my frosh year in DLSU would be this "hectic". We're as busy as the graduating students in CED. Haha. By the way, I saw Enchong last Monday and he surprised me and Maggie. He has highlights na! I think it's okay because the highlights look good on him. I also passed my chemistry test. Happy happy joy joy! Oh well, I think, this is all for today. Good night everyone! =)

Coffee Princess

Though I have a lot of work to do, here I am updating my blog again. I can smell the summer fragance and feel its hotness. The beginning of summer 2008 is quite hot, don't you agree? It makes me want to eat ice cream and drink a super cold mango shake. And oh, by just thinking about them, I feel hungry. Haha.

Last Monday, I went home (dorm) early because I wanted to study for our chemistry quiz. Maggie and I didn't meet as we usually do because she also had to do a school work. When Joy arrived, she told me that she's going to Starbucks because Ell gave her something and she wanted to use it. It was like a Starbucks promo. Anyway, because I wasn't in the mood to study yet, I decided to go with her since I haven't visited the Starbucks branch in Taft Avenue. The coffee scented shop was really tempting. I wanted to buy a mocha frap! However, I controlled myself because I'm saving my allowance to buy something I really want to have. While waiting for Joy's coffee, I saw the different brochures near the cashier area. Since I didn't buy anything, I got every brochure. Joy jokingly said, "Dana, baka gusto mo rin kumuha ng mga sugar? Haha". I said, "Di na Joy, di ko naman kailangan ng sugar eh. Haha. Ito nalang mga brochures. Para kahit hindi ako bumili ng something, masasabi na galing akong Starbucks. Libre pa! O di ba? Haha." (while showing her the brochures)

Before studying for chemistry, I looked at the brochures from Starbucks. My jaw dropped when I realized that I accidently got an application form. I felt lucky because I wanted to apply there for a summer job. Unfortunately, I suddenly remembered what Ocha said before, that they're only accepting applicants who are 18 years old and above. I'm not yet 18! I still have seven months to wait before I turn 18. Oh well, I'll try my luck. I'd visit the Starbucks in Paseo in Sta. Rosa, Laguna and inquire before our "short" vacation ends. Haha. I'm really hoping and keeping my fingers crossed. *sigh* =)

An Apple a Day...

I just finished reading the special issue of Ang Pahayagang Plaridel. I don’t have any idea what really motivated me to write this one at the moment. While my room mates are now enjoying themselves in Dreamland (I hope you get my idea), I, on the other hand, am still awake, typing down all my thoughts as I listen to the music of the Click Five, Howie Day, and the Jonas Brothers.

Perhaps, I am inspired by what I have read because the articles are very much related to my course, which is Early Childhood Education. The special issue of APP talks about the social issues and concerns of the schools in our country today, such as the quality of education for both public and private schools, tuition fees, the so- called “world class standards”, fraternities and sororities, gifted- children, and the like. The whole content of the issue for this month is very informative because it helps students like me, particularly in our college, the College of Education, to be aware of what is currently happening in the world of education. For this reason, by being aware, we can apply what we have learned in school (the theories, etc.) and can possibly make a difference in the lives of our fellow Filipinos.

People! I’m excited to share with you my microteaching experience I had a while ago in our PTEACH class. However, I really have to go to sleep because I still have classes tomorrow. I would grab this opportunity because it only happens once in a blue moon. I’ll tell you about it next time. Good bye and good night! =)

Reality Bites

It is almost summer and we are still not yet on vacation. Unlike the others who spend the time of their lives at the beaches, we, on the other hand, are busy doing and finishing the requirements given to us by our professors. We still have classes after Easter Sunday and while the other people are enjoying partying around, we are cramming and worrying about our works, and wondering if we were to get a 3.5 or 4.0 grade in our outputs. Life is totally unfair.

I'm done doing my final paper for PTEACH 1 and the instructional material for FSTUDY2 (actually, I recycled the material. Haha. Lo and I will submit the puzzle I made last term for ECEDPRN. Haha.) but there are a lot of things to be accomplished such as my microteaching presentation together with the lesson plan, the papers (note: the PAPERS) for ECEDSED due next week, the game for STATLIT, and the reporting- final requirement for FACLERN. In addition to that, me and my classmates have to study for our finals in ECEDSED, STATLIT, and chemistry. So much to do, less time to work. Hassle. Haay.

Okay, I have to say good bye! I will do what I can do today since I'm in the mood to do these stuff. I'll update as soon as I'm finished and done with everything. =) Enjoy your vacation people and Happy Easter! =)

Changing for the Better

Right now, I feel that I won't be a dean's lister for this term. The subjects are easy to understand, but when it comes to assessment, I don't get satisfied with the results I get, even if I always try my best. I don't know what's happening to me. Last term, I gained points through reciting in class. My second term is a blessing...will my third and last term in my frosh year in DLSU be a blessing too? I really really hope so. I don't want to be "out" of the dean's list. I should recite more, and be more serious in my studies. I know the feeling...and I don't want to feel the same again. I hope you get my point.

I want to change the way I am when it comes to academics and school. No more laziness and manyana habit. Yes to hardworking, being dedicated to my studies, doing what I can do for today, and being a fast "mover". Good bye to insecurities and sensitiveness. It's not about being a nerd. I want to have a life too, you know. Haha. I'm changing for the better because I want to achieve my dreams, such as becoming a pre-school teacher, being successful in the near future, and being able to travel around the world. =)

Hip Hop Abs

Marami na ang nagsasabi at nakakapansin na kahiyang ko ang Maynila. Kung ang ibang mga kolehiyala ay namamayat dahil sa napakaraming gawain sa eskwela, hindi ito nangyayari sa akin. Oo, aaminin ko, masarap kumain at mahirap itong pigilan lalo na kung ang paboritong pagkain ang nasa hapag kainan. Dahil sa masarap akong kumain, eto, ako'y tumataba at karamihan sa aking mga damit ay hindi na nagkakasya. Minsan, naitanong ko na sa sarili ko, "Ganito na ba akong kataba?" Nababahala na rin ako dahil ayoko tumaba ng napakataba. Una, walang damit na maaring magkasya sa akin. Pangalawa, maaring magkasakit ako sa puso. Ayaw ko nun. Nag-iisip ako ng maraming paraan upang mamayat upang maisuot ko muli ang iba kong mga damit. Nais kong mamayat na hindi gumagastos ng napakalaki, o kaya hindi sa pag-inom ng mga diet pills dahil wala itong maidudulot na kabutihan sa katawan. Maaring bawasan ko ang pagkain ng kanin at mga pagkain na mayaman sa carbohydrates tulad ng pasta na aking paborito (baked macaroni, lasagna, carbonara, etc.) . Maari rin ang mag-ehersisyo. Ngunit, sa aking palagay, hindi pa sapat ang mga ito upang mamayat. May naisip akong paraan at nakuha ko ito sa aking blockmate-kaibigan: Hip Hop Abs ni Shaun T. Sa pamamagitan nito, it would be easier to burn fats and lose weight by dancing and having fun. Diba, walang side-effects? Haha. Kung may gusto pa kayong malaman tungkol sa hip hop abs, pwede kayong mag-research sa Yahoo or sa Google or pwede kayong pumunta sa site na ito: (http://www.beachbody.com/). Kaya sa darating na bakasyon, mag Hip Hop Abs na! Haha.=) In a more serious tone, dapat magkaroon tayo ng disiplina sa sarili upang mamayat, ok? Magandang Gabi sa inyong lahat! =)

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Eyes Opened

Before I go home at the dorm, I went to Central Plaza to see the man of the moment, Jun Lozada. I finally saw “the man” whom I usually see on TV. He visited our school to say what he wants to say, like what he does in the other schools. (By the way, I’m not pro nor against him. I went there just because I wanted to see him in person, because I’m curious about how he looks like.) He was on the stage, answering the questions of the people, whether a student or a professor, or a media person. As I stood there listening to him, I realized that this new issue in the Philippines today is now a part of our history…that today’s generation, our generation, is included in its latest chapter. I’m really glad because we (our generation) are becoming aware of what’s happening in our country, for the reason that we want a better future. It leaves me a good feeling because we are now trying to make a stand and we make ways to reach out to let our voices be heard. I hope it will never stop there as we put our words into actions. Let’s make a difference. Let’s make history. =)

The Crammer

Actually, I have lots of things to do and I haven't started yet. I don't feel like doing them so I guess I'll cram again tomorrow, even if there's no classes on Monday. I want to finish everything tomorrow--- the critic paper, the revision of our ECEDLOG powerpoint presentation, the interview, the observation and the lesson plan thing...as in everything! Then on Monday, I'll just rest and study for our chemistry midterms. Oh, and speaking of chemistry, I suddenly remember that I have to watch this documentary by Al Gore and write a reaction paper regarding it. Whew. I can do them! Aja! Aja! =)

Night night everyone! =)

Good-bye Goldie! Good-bye Bubbles!

I lost two dogs this month. Goldie passed away three weeks ago while Bubbles, she passed away this morning. I felt guilty because I never had the chance to play with them and feed them. They were really such adorable dogs. Too bad, I wasn't able to take their pictures. The aura at home seems different because they're gone. I will definitely miss them. Good-bye Goldie! Good-bye Bubbles! Your memory will always remain with us...thank you for all the help you gave us...for being watchful, obedient, and great dogs... We know that the both of you are happy, wherever you are right now. We heart the both of you!

*Now let's go to the brighter side...I dreamt about the person whom I admire two nights ago (actually, he always appears in my dreams now). In my dream, he's with a girl and they're super sweet. The girl is beautiful and they look good together. Waa! In reality, when I see him, he's always alone (that is...only by himself...no girl/s beside him) but I think...he likes someone. Yes, he likes someone and I feel that she's as beautiful as the girl I saw in my dream! Waa! In addition to that, I dreamt about him last night too...he just walked by. Cutie. Haha. Waa!*

One Big Truth is All We Need

Ever since Jun Lozada entered in the picture of Philippine politics, many have raised their eyebrows and asked themselves, “Who is this man?” Nobody knows him from the start, but now, he is more popular than Marimar and other teleserye characters in the primetime television. He is the most controversial and most- talked about person in the town today besides his opponent, Ben Abalos. He is “The Star Witness” of the ZTE scandal that involves our president, Gloria Macapagal- Arroyo.

I was surprised when I saw the La Sallian Brothers on TV especially Brother Armin, the President of the La Sallian community in the Philippines. I began to wonder: What are they doing there, in the senate, of all places in the Philippines? I never knew that Lozada is a fellow La Sallian because he studied in La Salle Greenhills when he was still younger. The brothers are protecting him because right now, his life is in danger. He asked the brothers to help him because he knows he could count on them, especially in times like this. That is why the whole La Sallian community, is affected by this controversy. Now I know why we always have prayer vigils every night after class at the Amphitheatre. We are only just praying for the truth and nothing more.

One big truth is all we need. I hope the whole truth will come out soon…and I’m also wishing that people would stop going to EDSA to have another People Power. Well hey, aren’t you guys getting tired of going to EDSA? If you could think of other ways to express your love and concern for our country, it would be much better. Three EDSA People Powers are enough okay?



*By the way, please watch TV Patrol tomorrow because the guys from ABS-CBN news and current affairs will be covering the campaign for the truth of the De La Salle University- Manila, College of St. Benilde and St. Scholastica’s College- Manila students. Please support our campaign. Let’s all be united. Let’s all be ONE for the truth. Thank you!*

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(this my very first entry I made inside the car all the way from Manila to Calamba)

Senti Mode

It is cold outside and it seems that rain will fall down anytime. I don't know if there would be a typhoon coming because I seldom watch news and I hardly read newspaper nowadays because auntie stopped buying since she went to States. I don't know what's happening in our country and around the world except for the ZTE broadband deal that involves Lozada and Abalos and the latest school shooting in Illinois where there are six people dead. Anyway, this is the perfect time to be in a sentimental mode since the weather is cold. For me, this is the perfect time to think and reflect about some stuff. And of course, this would be more perfect if I have a cup of hot chocolate with marshmallow in my hand. Oh well, I'm just wondering, if you were thinking about someone, is it possible that he or she is thinking about you too? Haay...I hope so.

My twelve friends in school. I love them. My days are always happy and colorful because of them. Thank you my twelve loves. Tasha, we miss you. =)

*By the way, I changed the song in my blog again. The title is One in a Million by Miley Cyrus. She also sang If We Were a Movie, the previous song. Ibabalik ko ulit ang If We Were a Movie...hindi ko lang alam kung kailan. Sa ngayon, One in a Million muna. =)*

S.A.D.

You might think I'm sad today because my title is S.A.D. If you have looked at the date above this entry, today is February 14, 2008. Oh, so today is Valentine's Day. I spent my first valentines in La Salle this year and it's kinda different because I came from an environment where there are no boys (my age) around. I won't elaborate more on that but I hope you get my point. Haha. Going back to S.A.D, it actually stands for Single Awareness Day. Every year, as the sweet couples celebrate happy heart's day, single people celebrate SAD. To stop you from wondering if I were sad, the answer is a big NO. I'm not sad. I never spend my valentines day feeling sad or bitter (though I said I felt bitter towards Mr. Loyalty in my previous entry hahaha) because everyday is a special day. =) Okay, this is all for today. Happy Valentine's Day (or Happy Heart's Day) and Happy Single Awareness Day to everyone! Enjoy! =)

***I finally saw Enchong Dee (actually, I see him every Monday). He's very handsome...that's true. =) He's visible in school these days and I'm very happy! Haha.***

Bitter-Sweet Like the Candy in the Street

Okay. Okay. Okay. Let me get straight to the point. I feel bitter towards Mr. Loyalty. That is his new name, by the way. Bitter! Bitter! Bitter! I don't know if I would cry or laugh. For more than three years, I'm still loyal to him, and I don't know why...pathetic isn't it? Valentines is on Thursday and I know that he would be the happiest guy in the whole wide world...There are a lot of good guys in school...I know some of them...and they are the ideal guy friends that most girls are praying for...but why am I loyal? Is it because I'm still holding on to my past and never letting go? I'm trying hard to forget him! Bitter! Bitter! Bitter! *sob* *sob* *sob* Just kidding. Haha. Anyway, have a very Happy, Sweet, Meaningful, and Romantic Valentines day! =)

Hmmm...What If?

Three or four days ago, I attended the meeting of Mau and her fellow colleagues. I just joined them because I didn’t like to go home (to the dorm) yet. I sat there listening to their views and opinions about the certain issues that happen in our college, which is the College of Education (CED). There were four questions, but the only question that remained in my mind was the first one. Of course, there is this perception that which comes first would be the one being remembered. Well, that is partly true in my case. Haha. Although, I can still remember the other questions, I don’t know why I couldn’t forget the first question: If CED were to be an object, what would it be? Why? They have different answers like crayons and rubrics cube that follow reasonable and sensible reasons. I have my own answer and reason as well, even if I’m not really a part of their meeting. I only kept it in my mind (how generous, not sharing my own thoughts! Haha). Here it goes:


If CED were to be an object, it would be a puzzle. In CED, there are issues and concerns that need to be resolved. The people in the college aren’t united yet. There are still empty spaces that serve as a barrier to each and everyone. Like a puzzle, in order to be called a REAL puzzle, it should be complete. The pieces of the puzzle fill the empty spaces to close the gap among each individual. There shouldn’t be any missing piece. There shouldn’t be one being left behind. When these pieces are already together, they become connected and united, thus producing a wonderful masterpiece.

So this is my reason. I know I can’t be a part of the student council because I feel I don’t have the potential to be a leader. However, if I were to be given a chance to run for a particular position, I would accept it. Oh well, this is my chance to come out of my shell and become a more active student right? This is my chance to fully overcome my shyness. In this way, I can prove something that is beyond the expectations of others; it is like a surprise. I would try my very best to serve my fellow La Sallians. Like what most of the candidates say, a leader serves the people; not the people serve the leader. If I would have my own RTR someday, after saying my script, I would always tell them one thing: I may have a small voice…but I can make a BIG difference. Wow, enough said. And back to my ECEDSED review. Haha. =)

Daydreaming...

Today, please allow me to daydream and think about my crush, thank you..thank you. *haha*blush*. I just realized that in two weeks' time, it's valentine's day because on Friday, it's already the first day of February. I'm gonna spend my first valentines in school, and I can picture that day in my mind right now. Anyway, there would be nothing new for me. Haha. As always, I spend the day with myself, friends, or family. Maybe, this time, I'm gonna spend this day with myself and friends. Remember, my family is in Laguna, while I'm in Manila. Oh well, that's life. On the other hand, if you have noticed, I changed my music in this blog. I like this song very much. I always play this song in my computer at home or in my laptop, which I usually bring with me in Manila. Whenever I play this song, I think about my crush...hahaha...and my imagination goes...

I'm singing this song with my band infront of an audience. While singing, I can see my crush sitting in the front seat looking at me. It doesn't mean that he likes me too. He's just there to support me and my band. Because I'm afraid to tell him what I feel, I'll say it through this song. Definitely, he won't get the idea that I like him...but singing this song makes me feel better...because through singing, I can express what I feel... especially, my feelings towards him...

If we were a movie...you'd be the right guy...and i'd be the bestfriend you'd fall in love with in the end..

Oh well, they say that it's free to daydream. I'm just happy. He makes my day happy...*blush* =)

Bye!!! Good day!!! And...always think about happy thoughts to be happy!!! =)

My Experience with the Theresians

Yesterday, I had a great time. I went to Auntie Lucy's Alma Mater, St. Theresa's College in Quezon City, because she invited me to be her guest. Although I came from St. Scho, I accepted auntie's invitation. I never regretted my decision because I enjoyed the whole night with the Theresians. I even met some of auntie's former colleagues and former students.The party was very lively, happy, colorful, and extravagant. They really spent a lot of money to make that Alumni Homecoming a truly memorable event. What I liked about the celebration were good food, nice program, and the booths. Oh, I loved the booths! They invited Starbucks (I bought my first mocca frap for this year..haha), Krispy Kreme (I also bought a dozen donuts...I'm really dreaming about their glazed donuts..haha), Shakeys (I wanted to buy pizza, but since I bought mocca frap and donuts, I controlled myself..haha), Fruitas, Dulcinea, and a lot more.

This is my first time to experience an alumni homecoming. It is super duper fun! Well, I'm looking forward to celebrating an alumni homecoming with my fellow Scholasticans in the future. I hope that everybody will be there to celebrate and enjoy that wonderful day, reminiscing the unforgettable experiences we have had together in St. Scho. Ora et Labora. That in all things, God may be glorified!

Hit Me Britney One More Time

I first met Britney Spears when I was eight years old while watching TV. It was very accidental because I was changing channels, then I suddenly saw her video and got hooked on the song, Baby One More Time. I used to sing and dance her songs, which became big hits worldwide. Everybody loved her and her songs. There were young girls too who dressed and acted like she did. I began to like her because she was so talented and pretty. I loved the way she dances while singing because it was so graceful. No wonder why she was called "The Pop Princess". I even brought her albums from Baby One More Time to In the Zone. I became her number one fan.

It is not a surprise for famous people who get involved into a controversy. News about marriage, divorce, annulment, teenage pregnancy, drug addiction, death, and their private lives are so endless and common. Since Britney belongs to the Pop Royal Family in the world of entertainment, she has no escape from it. And because of these controversies, Britney's life became horrible.

I thought that her relationship with Justin Timberlake would stay forever. I was indeed happy for them. They really looked good together and by looking at their eyes, they seemed that they loved each other. After being together for so many years, they broke up. Poor Justin. Poor Britney. She seemed desperate about her life after Justin. She french-kissed Madonna during the MTV awards. That was very yucky, disappointing, and alarming. She married her old friend but filed a divorce within the 24 hours of their marriage. Her videos showed how affected she was because they were so...not so good. She was not the Britney that I used to know and like. That was why, I didn't buy her album after she released In the Zone. I began to dislike her specially when she got married to Kevin Federline, the father of their two children. She even took drugs. Her actions were very disturbing and she was very high. She wasted her life and her career. Because of what she did, she slowly became mentally crazy. She even hid her son from her husband just because she didn't want him to be near the child. Poor Britney.

Like her fellow pop star, Lindsay Lohan, she is always in and out of the rehab center. She is put there to change her life. Because of her very traumatic experiences [in her life], she is always the bulls eye of the paparazzi. They are interested in her and wherever she goes, there are always cameras around, taking pictures of her. Respecting one's own privacy isn't in the vocabulary of those paparazzis.

I agree with my friend when she said something about Britney. Well, she may be mentally crazy but her confidence while performing doesn't show that she is really mentally crazy. In fact, she seems "normal". I'm not saying that I'm beginning to be a fan of hers again, but I think she is amazing and pretty in her latest video, Piece of Me. The way she dances in that video...it's just incredible. That video is better than Gimme More. Haha. Maybe, Piece of Me is better because it is about the experiences that she is going through. Despite her situation right now, she still manages to perform well and do her best. Well, I hope that she'd change her life now. Come on, this girl has a talent. It's a pity if she doesn't change her life, right? Honestly, I miss the old Britney. I hope she comes back. =)

*If you want to see Britney's latest video, just watch MTV, Myx, or any music channels to see for yourself. You may also visit youtube.com *

It is Time

Dribble Dribble Shoot that Ball!

Last Monday, I surprised not only myself but my friends as well. In school, there is a program called L.E.A.P which is an alternative class for February 12. When Mau told me about the program, I was super excited because I felt that this is my chance to be discovered by the badminton varsity. Well, I'm not really a good badminton player but I would love to join the team. So, I went to the EDTECH room to enroll. Unfortunately, when I clicked the button for the badminton workshop, I had no slot. It was already very full and it was still morning. Our group was divided this time. Mau, Tricia, and the others enrolled in the hip-hop dance; Lo signed in the modeling program; I'm not really sure if Kat enrolled in the crafts, although I asked her. I just forgot. Haha. Meanwhile, Icca, Ocha, and Cheska enrolled in the basketball program. What about me? Okay, I'll tell you. A lot of people were surprised when I told them that I joined the basketball program as well. Yes, that is true. I enrolled in the basketball program. They were really nodding their heads in disbelief as if I was lying. Haha. They even thought that I was only joking. But I said firmly, "Yes, I enrolled in the basketball program". Honestly, I don't know anything about basketball. But I think that this is the right time to learn a new sport. Who knows, in the future, I would be the next Ty Tang. Haha. Of course, I'm just kidding. =) Anyway, I'm looking forward to learning basketball. I think, I would love it too as much as I love playing volleyball and badminton.

The Wanderer

Every Monday and Wednesday, I don't usually go home at the dorm right after dismissal. I always stay there until six thirty or quarter to seven. Mondays are scheduled for meeting with my bestfriend and we just wander around the campus...talking and sharing stuff, while Wednesdays are "devoted" to my never ending quest for Enchong Dee. Haha. In case you don't know Enchong, he is the guy in the latest Close- Up commercial who rides a motorcycle blowing, I think, fire. Haha. He actually looks gorgeous in person and he is really very stunning. Waaa. Sadly, I don't see him, while my friends always see him. They would always text me whenever they see Enchong Dee! Or, they will share their encounters with him around the campus. It's really sad. Some of them took pictures of him and saved them in their cellphones, then they'll show me. By the way, the recent picture of him was taken yesterday while buying siomai in Brother Connon Canteen. He's wearing green cap, green shirt, maong shorts, and red rubbershoes. Well, I think, he still has a Christmas hang-over. Haha. Anyway, I hope to see him before the school year ends. This last term for this school year is the best time to see Enchong Dee! Haha. =)

It's Nice to See You Again

While waiting for my time to go to Andrew lobby to look for Enchong, I accidentally saw an old friend in school. Actually, he's not studying in our school, but in the school nearby ours. He was just there to play basketball with his friends. Anyway, I was not expecting to see him. I was really surprised when I saw him twice this month in school. I didn't greet him when I first saw him and I felt guilty. Haha. Anyway, during our second meeting, I greeted him na. Hmmm. Message for you: I'm happy to see you there! At last, nagkita na rin tayo bago matapos ang school year. Hope to see you around! =) *you know who you are...haha.*

The Dream of a Sporty Girl Wannabe

The first week of the the third and final semester for this school year has just started. I've seen some organizations in school sitting relaxingly along their respective places in SJ walk, hanging tarpaulins to recruit new members, if I'm not mistaken. Oh yes. This is it. I'm just waiting to see the members of the badminton varsity, begging students to join their group.

I talked to one of my blockmate-friend about my dream, which is joining the badminton varsity. I told her that it's my dream eversince I learned how to play the sport, and I liked it very much. It was surprising to hear that she also wanted to join the team because she likes to play it as well. I was very glad because I wouldn't be alone, if ever the team accepted me.

Right now, I'm having a very big dilemma.

I don't know if I would still join the team, after seeing the team having their training yesterday. I don't know if I could do what they can do. I don't know if I could hit the shuttle-cock as hard as they do. I don't know if I would survive their team.

But what about my dream? If I join, there would be a lot of benefits such as decreasing the amount of my tuition fee, which makes my aunt and father very happy, as expected. If I'm an athlete, I would get free tickets and a special seat ( like Upper A) in Araneta, during the season of UAAP. I would have the chance to travel inside and outside the Philippines to compete and represent the school. On the other hand, if I'm already a member, there are trainings in the morning (5:30 or earlier) and in the evening after school hours (6:00 onwards). OMG. I can't wake up very early in the morning and I don't want to stay up late in school.

Oh well. I guess, I really have to think about it. What do you think?

Back to Normal

The Christmas vacation is finally over. My life as a college student will be back to normal again starting tomorrow. Tomorrow, I'm going back to the dormitory. School will start tomorrow as well. I'm sure, there are a lot of stories from my friends and school mates about their experiences this vacation. I wonder what to tell them. I actually spent my Christmas and New Year at home and my family and I never went to any places around and outside the country, unlike them. Haha. Well, I don't know how I feel right now. Mixed emotions. I'm happy because I'm going to see my friends and my best friend. We haven't seen each other for a very long time. Yet, I'm sad because I'm going to miss Laguna. Anyway, I think I should be happy because I only have four school days a week. At least, I'll have a long weekend this third and last semester.

My Own Countdown...The Seven Blessings from the Year of the Pig

In two hours' time, the clock will strike to midnight. The big black sky will turn into colorful one, with different shades of red, green, yellow, orange, and blue as people end the year 2007 with a loud bang. Hello Philippines! Hello World! Hello and Welcome Year 2008!

The year 2007 has been a fruitful one for me. I call this year my "lucky year". Why lucky year? Because the year of the pig has been good to me. I always keep in mind what my aunties tell me: Count your blessings. Since the two biggest networks in the country usually have their yearend special, I would also do the same. I would have my own yearend special. But, this one is different, because I will count down the blessings that I've received this year. Here are the seven blessings:

7.) New Clothes

Okay, I sound too materialistic, but hey, I consider having new clothes as a blessing. Haha! This year, I have had the opportunity to buy lots and lots of clothes because I definitely need them. And, I learned to save up my allowance since, like what I said, new clothes are a necessity [for me].

6.) New Gadgets

Another materialistic one. Last March, I received a new cellphone from my parents as their graduation gift for me. Buying me a new phone is one of the happiest moment of my life (wow, haha). Also, I received a laptop from my aunties and parents for my birthday. I really need a laptop, especially when I stay in the dorm, so I wouldn't go to computer shops anymore.

5.) High School Graduation

Although, graduating from high school was a sad moment for me because this would probably be the last time I would see my beloved fellow Humblebees, this was also a happy moment for me because I received my high school diploma and I got nice awards. I miss you Humblebees!!! =)

6.) Graduation Song Composition

It was really a nice moment when the graduation song composed by our group was chosen to be sung in our graduation. I never expected it because the other groups really had wonderful songs as well. I considered this one as a blessing from God. =)

5.) Reunion with my Grade School Friends

I had fun being with my grade school friends last April 29. I would never ever forget this day. And I hope, next year, there would be a Part 2.

4.) Getting Good Grades in La Salle

I really thought that I would not make it in La Salle. Although, most of the lessons are easy to understand, the requirement are hard to do. I have to sleep late at night or early in the morning just to finish them because I aim for the grade of 4.0. My late night sleeps and eyebags are worth it because the results are always good. =)

3.) Meeting New Peers

I'm really happy because my circle of friends is getting bigger and bigger. It is nice to meet new people and learn from them. But, like what I said in my previous entry, it is better to be careful than to take a risk.

2.) My La Salle Dream

Being accepted in La Salle was unexpected. When I learned that I was accepted, I really jumped for joy. It is really my dream to be in this prestigious university. I realized that God maybe wants me to be really there. Maybe, I'm born to be a La Sallian. Animo! (haha) *Trivia: I cried when I didn't make it in Ateneo though. =)*

1.) My Family is still complete and I have nice people around me

Yes, my family is still complete and I'm very thankful that nobody left us this year, if you get what I mean. I'm really praying hard to God to give my loved ones a very long life because they still need to experience a lot of things...especially that we (our generation) are still young. We love them. We still need a lot of time to spend with them. On the other hand, I'm thankful because there are a lot of people who mean a lot to me, who never forget and are always there when I need them. They became a big part of my life, especially this year. They made my year meaningful and colorful.

See...there are a lot of things to be thankful for. I'm really thankful!!! Thank you very much!!! Haha. To all of you...Happy, happy New Year!!! May you have a blessed and fruitful year ahead. And never forget to count all your blessings!!! Take care people!!! =)

My Christmas This Year

My Christmas this year is quite different from the previous years because our family is not complete. We are only few this Christmas and it's really sad, although I enjoyed celebrating it with them. It feels different because I'm so used to celebrating this season with a lot of family members.

Since we were only few, the laughter and the stories were few as well. Our yearly family "pictorial" didn't seem like one because there were only two cameras--- mine and Ate Lilian's. Before, there were a lot of cameras and the pictorials really took a lot of time. I was also disappointed because my cousins from Canada weren't with us. They celebrated Christmas in Quezon City with one of my aunts who is sick. I understood the situation, but I wished they were here instead of being there. My other cousins who live in the other side of Quezon City didn't come for Christmas too. They went to Bacolod to celebrate Christmas there. :'( The only thing that didn't change was, me running out of English words while talking to Luisa and Cente. Haha. :D

Anyway, I hope that next year we are complete. Christmas is not the same without them. And, they missed a lot delicious foods such as lechon, crab, kare-kare, fried chicken, and the yap-yap (small shrimps). Haha.

Before I end this entry, I would like to share with you some of the pictures taken last Christmas: (I also uploaded pictures in friendster and multiply)

Before I Sleep Tonight...

First of all, I want to greet all of you a very belated Merry Christmas! I hope that you guys have had a wonderful and meaningful Christmas celebration. And I'm sure, everybody enjoyed this season.

Okay, I only have thirty minutes left before I go up to my room and sleep on my bed. You know, even if I'm at home, I still have a curfew. It sounds like c-o-r-n-y, but I have to follow the rule as long as I live here. So, I will go straight to the point, because time is running out.

I love writing new stuff that's why I have my blogs. Like what I said to a previous entry, this is my outlet to express what I think and feel. It is possible that people can see and read my blogs because, hey, this is internet, if you know what I mean. It is wonderful to share thoughts with each other and it is nice to know others who have the same idea as you. I'm just thinking about what my cousin said the last time we've seen each other. Well, she has a point. Let's be careful when we share our thoughts, especially when writing (or typing rather) blogs. We should know our limitations. Don't add and meet people whom you're not connected with. Oh well, when it comes to adding a celebrity, it's a different case. Haha. I turned down some friend requests from people whom I don't know in Friendster. I only accept friend requests that come from people whom I have connection, and of course, from the ones I know personally. This may sound like a cliche, but let's keep in mind what our parents usually tell us before: "Don't talk to strangers". I'm not saying that it's bad to meet new peers. But I think, it is definitely better to meet new friends in person, not thru chatrooms, friendster, or other websites in the cyberspace. So please, be careful. Don't take a risk, because you might not know what would happen. Good night! Ciao! =)

A Writer's Block and Totally Random Thoughts

Right now, I'm experiencing a writer's block. I have a lot of things to say about my dream chocolate cake but unfortunately, I slowly forget all about them. I don't know where to start and I don't know what to say. Gosh. Although my experience with a chocolate cake yesterday is memorable, it seems that somebody has erased that memory of mine in my mind. Sad. I'm totally blank today and I'm wishing that I could write like the way Bianca Gonzales, Saab Magalona and Mikee Lee write. Oh my. This is really not good. I feel like I have amnesia or Alzheimer's or something. I suddenly remember some of my past examinations when I experienced a mental block. Shocks. And now I'm comparing myself to a gold fish! Wow! Why gold fish? Because I've read in a magazine that gold fishes have a short term memory. They only remember things for only like five seconds! Yes, five seconds! OMG. Guys, I think I'm like Dory from Finding Nemo. She's the fish who helped Nemo's father find him. She's the fish who has a happy spirit and the one who keeps on forgetting things--- definitely like me. And, she said the lines, "Just keep swimming...just keep swimming...just keep swimming...". Her voice is the voice of Ellen De Generes. Lucky her. She always has a lot of things to say, like Oprah, and what she says is all impromptu. Waaa. I feel like an old lady who doesn't remember anything at all! I imagine myself having wrinkles on my face and my hair becomes grey then white. Haha. Very funny. Leech. I feel and I look like I lost my sanity. Haay. I'm laughing by myself! Is this the result of having a writer's block? Hey, I'm supposed to write [or type rather], an entry about chocolate cake! Whew. But instead, I ended up writing non-sense stuff. Grrrr. By the way, this is a complete example of random thoughts. Raarrrr.

Awww...*sigh*

Nine days to go until Christmas. Yay! I'm so excited because my cousins from Canada, and the twins, who came all the way from California and Los Angeles, will celebrate this special day with us. I really want to see them!!! My camera is ready to take pictures of them. Hahaha. Honestly, I'm practicing talking to myself in English in front of the mirror. Hahahaha.

Well, there's one thing that I've realized here. Christmas is meaningful and happy even without expensive gifts, the material things such as new dress and new shoes, and delicious foods. I'm not saying that having those is bad. Of course, it's fine because, honestly, it's wonderful to have something new for Christmas. My point is, even if without those things around, at least you're with the ones you love and you spend this special day together, it's okay. No matter what, as long as you're together, everything will be alright. =)

Takbo! Takbo! Takbo!

Dumating na rin ang araw na pinakahihintay ng mga mag-aaral ng Unibersidad ng Pilipinas. Ngayon ay ang araw ng pagtakbo ng mga kalalakihan na walang saplot sa kanilang katawan. Ito ay ang pinakasikat at walang kamatayang Oblation Run. Taon-taon ko nalang ito nababalitaan sa telebisyon, sa dyaryo, o sa radyo. Hindi ko alam kung bakit at paano ito nag-umpisa. Ngunit, sa aking palagay, ito ay may mahalagang simbolo, hindi lamang sa mga taga-UP kundi maging sa Pilipinas na rin. Dahil ako ay naiintriga sa kasaysayan ng Oblation Run, nais ko na magsaliksik tungkol dito. Subalit, hindi ko muna ito gagawin dahil sasamantalahin ko muna ang bakasyong ito. Gagawin ko muna ang mga bagay na hindi ko nagawa sa nakalipas na tatlong linggo dahil ako ay naging abala sa paggawa ng mga proyekto na binigay sa amin ng mga propesor. Tulad nga ng islogan ng Kit-Kat, "Have a break, have a Kit-Kat".

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Hindi ko pa nararanasan ang manood ng isang tunay Oblation Run. Nakikita ko lamang ito sa telebisyon, sa isang bahagi ng mga balita. Ayon sa iba, ito ay masaya at makabuluhan. Hindi ko naman pinapangarap na mapanood ito ng "live" , dahil hindi pa ako handa na makakita ng mga kalalakihan na tumatakbo ng walang kahit ano sa kanilang katawan, kahit na ako'y nasa tamang edad na. Kung ang mga naliligo nga sa swimming pool na ang tanging suot lang ay trunks sa skul ay hindi ko matingnan ng tuwid, ito pa kayang mga tumatakbo sa kalye na walang suot na trunks? Hahaha.

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I'm Fine, Thank You

Everything is back into its proper place. Mama is not upset anymore. Yey! She brought ice cream then she told me to smile...=) At least, we're okay now and I'm happy! =) So, I have to bid you adieu, because I'll study for our long test tomorrow (chdodev). Remember, I have a goal and I want to achieve it. Wish me luck! Aja! =)

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I LOVE ICE CREAM =)

What Have I Done?

My aunt and I usually attend mass every Saturday night, thus anticipated mass. My parents and my brother also attend that mass but they don't sit with us because they prefer sitting at the back rather than infront. Anyway, I listened to the homily of the priest. I think that his homily is nice because it talks about "living our lives to the fullest". Our life is not permanent; it's temporary and we will all die. That is why, we should have more reasons to enjoy our lives. We shouldn't sulk in one corner and pity ourselves. Try doing things that will make us happy. For example, finding happiness in simple things like eating ice cream and spending time with the family. FAMILY. That word is stuck in my head. I couldn't forget what he said about hugging each member of the family because there will come a time, we wouldn't have the chance to hug these people anymore. Remember, time changes, and as it changes, people change.

After the mass, at home, I told my mother jokingly yet nicely that she should take care of my father and hug him too because the priest said so in the homily. The priest has a point and in my opinion, he's right. When I told mama these words, I didn't mean anything bad. Is it bad to remind or tell our parents that giving a warm and sincere hug makes someone feel better? Well, I think, in my mother's case, yes, it's bad. She got upset (or maybe angry). She said that she's not that showy and expressive and she takes good care of papa. I answered back. I said, "Mama, wala naman masama kung mag-hug kayo ni papa eh. Kaya ko lang nasabi kasi hindi ko na kayo nakikita na nagha-hug. Di na tulad ng dati..." There was silence. I think my answer "shot" mama. Natigilan si mama. She just repeated what she said and added some more stuff, which I couldn't remember at all. Papa heard everything and he didn't say anything. He was quiet all the time but eventually, he said, "Tama na 'yan." And guess what I did? As usual, I cried...I cried again.

What have I done? Am I a BAD daughter? What's wrong with what I said? I just want to see them hug. What's wrong with giving themselves a hug? Honestly, when someone hugs me, I feel good. And I think I broke mama's heart...OMG. I feel bad...

No More Drama

I think, this is the right time to be serious. I need to be serious to get good grades. I saw my midterm grade in biology yesterday and I'm not satisfied. Although, I passed, I should have given more effort on it. I will also be more serious not only in biology but in other subjects as well such as chdodev and tredone. I need to work harder because I want to get grades not lower than 2.0. Also, I should not give attention to Enchong Dee for the meantime. Next time nalang ang celebrity sight-seeing...hahaha...=) And if ever I get the grades that I want or that will make me satisfied (I hope I will), there's no more drama. I promise! =)

Something to Think About

At exactly 12:05 AM of the first day of November, my fellow humblebee and former classmate in St. Scho (Karel) sent me a message. As I was scrolling down the keys of my phone, I thought it was a quote about Christmas because there were words that mention Christmas. Anyway, I had goose bumps when I finished the message because I was the only one awake during that time. I just finished watching an episode of Princess Hours which I borrowed from Ell. After reading, I couldn't sleep and I kept thinking about it. This was the message:

Malamig na

ang simoy

ng hangin.

Ramdam mo ba?

Ano kayang dahilan?

Dahil kaya malapit na ang pasko?

O baka naman

Dahil may katabi kang

Multo?

*Goodnight! (smiley)

How about you, dear readers of my blog? (feeling may nagbabasa ng blog ko...hahaha...) What do you think? =)

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Confessions Part Two

Here I am again making another confession. I never thought that I would do it again. I'm so glad that blogger is here. Blogger is one of my "outlets" where I can put all my thoughts and "release" what I feel. Haha. Today, I have another stories to share.

Uwian Na

I did it again. I asked my aunt and tried to convince her if I can go home (in Laguna) after school, although I know that there's no possibility that she'll agree. Of course, she enumerated the reasons that she gave me before like the price of the gasoline is high, the car is too old to go back and forth Manila, and I will get tired. Surprisingly, I didn't say anything this time. I just kept quiet and nodded my head.

I really don't know what's going on with me. I always wanted the uwian way. Perhaps, I miss home--- a lot. Most of my blockmates get envy with us who stay in the dorm because according to them, we're independent and there's no parents who always look and check everything that we do. They say it's cool and fun. Yes, they may be right. Living in the dorm is cool because we learn to be independent and we do silly and fun things. We don't depend on anyone because there's nobody who will take care of ourselves except us. On the contrary, living in the dorm for four days (sometimes five days because we have Saturday classes) is also sad because we miss our families--- our home. Or probably, I'm the only one who feels this way. For six months, I'm still not yet adjusted, really. My room mates and dorm mates are most likely adjusted in this kind of life because I don't see them cry or hear them say, I want to go home. I don't know when I would be adjusted to dorm life. I'm still not losing hope that my wish, the uwian way, would come true someday. Oh, maybe, my wish will be granted when the price of the gasoline will decrease forever and when my parents will have enough money to buy a new car. *sigh*

Loyalty Not Yet Over?

I'm still thinking about that person. I thought I was really over him, but I guess, I'm not. God, please help me forget him. Let me set him free.

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