Lessons from Experiences

School is a place where students, like me, learn. In school, students acquire knowledge and skills that they apply as they grow up to adapt to challenges and changes in their environment. In school, they learn academically and sometimes, they compete with each other. On the other hand, school is also a place where they can meet friends, acquaintances, and sometimes, the Draco Malfoy. If you're reading Harry Potter, you'll get my point.

There are also some instances wherein we learn something new, not being taught by our teachers. These are the lessons that we learn through our experiences, from the reality. And from these experiences, we might make mistakes, but we can learn from them.

Recently, I learned something new. These lessons, I learned outside school. I would like to share them with you:

1. Two weeks ago, I had the chance to ride the LRT and MRT with my blockmates Ocha, Cheska and Sab. It was fun, but it was tiring too. We went to Greenhills to visit an exclusive pre-school.

Lessons Learned: Be careful and be street-smart when riding these public vehicles. There are "bad people" around who'll be tempted to get something from you like cellphones and wallets so keep them inside your trustworthy bags. Be observant.

2. I tried "uwian" this week, and I swear, I wouldn't do it again. It was very, very tiring. Now, I convinced myself that I will stay in dorm for three days, Mondays- Thursdays. So my "uwian" plan will not push through.

Lessons Learned: Stay in the dorm. It is much better.

3. I asked some teachers, who I know, to answer my survey last weekend. Instead of doing it during the day, I went to their houses during the night. Although they were accomodating to me, I was really, really guilty because I made "abala".

Lessons Learned: Don't procrastinate so you won't bother anyone. Be on time.

4. I made a very big mistake. I should have looked and checked at my personal settings before I do anything else. "Nakakahiya talaga."

Lessons Learned: Be careful.

Before I do my mini-thesis in Englcom, I just realized something:

We should not blame ourselves when what we do, what we think, or what we have planned don't work out. Don't ever think that there's something wrong with you. We make mistakes because we're not perfect, and it's just normal. You can't turn back the time to make what we have done perfectly right. Past is past. All you have to do is learn from it, so you won't do the same mistake again. Be careful. Don't ever think that you're alone too, because there are people who can help and support you--- your family and friends and God. It's not the end of the world! Think positive! And hey, what is life without challenges, right? That's life. You can do it. I believe in you. =)

Too Bad to be Good

Because I love ice cream, chocolates, and other cold beverages and foods, I developed a sore throat last Monday. When night came, I didn't feel well so I wasn't able to study seriously for our psychology quiz. What mattered to me during that time was to rest and sleep.

I didn't have a "I-feel-good-ta-na-na-na-nan" feeling this week. My sore throat was gone, then a very bad cold came, and very bad cough followed, then my sore throat returned. Because of them, my whole week wasn't that happy.

Right now, I'm at home. I'm supposed to finish my survey questions for our "mini-thesis" in Englcom. Unfortunately, I don't feel well. On the other hand, I'm quite fortunate as well because I'm at home. I can rest. I need rest. Haha.

Okay, that's all for today. I have a lot to do tomorrow. I'll go back to school for our NSTP. Wish me luck, and I hope that my "slight fever" will not push through. Our midterms are next week. Huhu. Good night! =)

*By the way, I didn't see Enchong Dee in school today. Sad. Haha. Anyway, I hope to see him in school soon. Haha.*

Confessions of a Certified Homesick Iyakin

At last! I already finished our EdTech project! I should have been sleeping right now but I decided to update my blog. So here I am.

Since the start of the first day of school, I've been thinking about a lot of things. I have so many reflective thinkings that sometimes, they drive me nuts. There are times that I feel confused, and then I end up breaking down into tears. I know I shouldn't be acting like this, but I can't help it. Well, I guess it's normal for a student like me who stays in a dorm and living away from the family. Honestly, I'm not that really adjusted...yet. I always anticipate the coming of Friday afternoon because it is the day when Auntie Lucy comes to the dorm to fetch me. On the other hand, my hyper-activeness becomes lesser when Monday comes. It's not because it is Monday, if you know what I mean. I don't like Mondays that much because it means leaving away from home again.

My parents and Auntie Lucy never fail to tell me, every week, that I would be adjusted someday. I just look at them. Then I begin to "propose" my plan about going "uwian". We always have "mini-conferences" about it. They give me their point and I give them mine. It is like a game. I always lose and they always win.

As I reflect and think about my points and reasons why I like to go home, I suddenly realize that my so-called "good reasons" are just for my own benefit. I want to come up with good reasons which can be beneficial not only for myself but for others as well. Too bad, it's hard.

Anyway, it is God's will, right? He knows what's best for me. He has good reasons why He gave me the chance to study in La Salle and to stay in a dorm. Although, I'm still feeling homesick, I would accept the reality. I should be thankful for that. Who knows, maybe someday, I could be adjusted (I really hope so) or maybe my whole eternal "uwian" plan/wish would come true. Oh well, I'll just keep my fingers crossed. Have a blessed day!!!

Dalawa in One

Ang Buhay Kolehiyo

Isang linggo na rin ang nakalipas simula nang mag-umpisa ang unang araw ng pasukan sa La Salle. Dahil ako ay nagmula sa isang paaralan na puro kababaihan ang mga mag-aaral, ako ay naninibago sa bagong lugar na aking kinabibilangan ngayon. Marami- rami na rin akong nakikilalang mga bagong kaibigan at marahil, sila ay madaragdagan pa sa paglipas ng panahon.

Isang napakalaking pagbabago para sa akin ang pagpasok sa buhay kolehiyo. Ito ay masaya ngunit mahirap. Masaya dahil tulad ng sinabi ko, maraming mga kaibigan ang makikilala, ngunit mahirap din dahil kailangang magsikap ng mabuti sa pag-aaral.

Ang buhay kolehiyo ay tulad ng pag-akyat sa isang napakataas na hagdan. Kung hindi mo ito aakyatin, hindi ka makakarating sa iyong pupuntahan.

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Andrew Building Hiking

My blockmates and I were at the library, located at the second floor of Andrew Building, studying for child foundation. Then suddenly, we realized that we only had 20 minutes left before the child foundation class. We stopped and waited for the elevator. Since the elevator had many students when it opened, we had no choice but to climb up the stairs from second floor to seventeenth floor. It was exhausting! All of us felt that our "pata" (legs in short...hahaha) hurt. Fortunately, we arrived on time, but didn't have the opportunity to drink even water because Sir Lem already entered the room. And then, he announced that there was no quiz at all. Whew!

Sleep Over

I had my very first sleep over at my best friend's house in Lipa this week. I stayed there for two days. I was so glad when my parents and my auntie granted my "wish" to stay and sleep there, knowing that Lipa's miles away from Laguna. I had fun with my best friend, her cute little sister, and with the people whom I met within their compound.

Although we didn't go out to go somewhere, like hanging-out in the mall or watching a movie like we used to, we enjoyed being "home buddies". We played with her little sister, watched their favorite TV shows, read Candy magazines, called some old friend of ours through mobile phone, ate ice cream, and laughed like there's no tomorrow at all. Hahaha. We even stayed up late and slept at around past 1 o'clock in the morning talking and sharing about some stuff.

Even if I'm just "five hours away" from my bestfriend, and even if we'll still see each other tomorrow in DLSU, I already miss her...and her cute little sister...and Lipa...a lot. How I wish to go back there again! Then we'll laugh again and again and again. Hahahaha.

To my best friend, and to all the people whom I met during my stay there, thank you very much for making me feel at home and for your genuine hospitality!

***These are the pictures taken during my two-day stay in Lipa***

College Na!

Ilang araw na lang, college na ako. Ang bilis talaga ng panahon, parang kailan lang. Hindi ko pa rin lubos maisip na maiiwanan ko ang aking pamilya dito sa Laguna upang tumira at mag-aral sa lungsod ng Maynila. Masayang malungkot. Masaya dahil natupad din ang aking pangarap na makapag-aral sa Maynila, sa La Salle, at makakasama ko muli ang iba kong mga kaibigan/kamag-aral...ngunit malungkot dahil hindi ko na makakasama ang aking pamilya. Pero, talagang ganyan ang buhay. Sabi nga sa akin nila Auntie, masasanay din ako. At hindi lang naman ako ang makakaranas ng ganito dahil pati ang aking mga makakasama ay ganoon din.

Kanina lamang ay tinitingnan ko ang mapa ng La Salle. Isang napakalaking unibersidad. Napakaraming mga gusali. Naisip ko tuloy, hindi kaya ako maligaw sa aking mga klase? Tapos, bigla ko rin na naisip, naku! kaya nga may orientation eh! hahaha...ikaw talaga!

Ganyan ako...may pagka-weirdo minsan. Hahaha.

Ngunit, kahit na ako ay masayang-malungkot, ako ay excited na rin sa darating na orientation at pasukan. May mga makikilala akong muli na mga taong may iba-iba't ugali, personalidad at maging kultura. Madaragdagan muli ang aking listahan. Sa bagay, masaya rin un.

Reunion

Still fresh from the reunion last Sunday, April 29, I can't help but look at the photos I took that day. How my smile widens whenever I see my former classmates' faces in my digital camera. Everyone looks amazing, happy, and bubbly.

I had fun being with my MSMSI batchmates. I was so surprised and happy when I saw them again. Four years had passed since I last saw them. There were a lot of changes in them, (physically..haha..) but they were still the ones I knew way back gradeschool. Although most of them grew even taller, and I felt more even smaller...hahaha... our pakikitungo sa isa't- isa didn't change. I was very very happy for that.

Ailil, Rg, Nika, Thesa, Chia, Alain, Mark Ian, Elijay, Alex, Alissa, Adrian, Insan Joven, Sceiy, Judith, Betsy, Alyssa, John, Pau, Chris Ann, Rin-rin, Paolo, Kenneth, Marielle, Teacher Rose, Teacher Lyn, Teacher Sol, Rap-rap, Mhillie and James...thank you very much for making my day so meaningful, wonderful, and colorful!!!

I hope to see you guys soon!!! I will miss you too!!!

My La Salle Dream

I opened my e-mail a while ago and was surprised to see my cousins' e-mails for me. I e-mailed them last week to spread my so-called "good news". I promised them to keep in touch through e-mail because we're "oceans apart". Anyway, I was so happy that we get to share about ourselves even just through e-mails. That was the wonder of modern technology.

Anyway, I didn't update my blog to write about e-mails and the wonders of modern technology. I wanted to write something about my dream--- my La Salle dream. It came true.

Not passing my first choice in La Salle was one of the greatest and most sad moments of my life. I may sound exaggerated, but it was true. I cried the whole night when I learned that I didn't pass my first choice (biology), although I expected it. As far as my memory was concerned, I guessed almost all the questions on the test paper because I was totally unprepared, thanks to Milenyo, the killer typhoon. However, I passed my third choice which was early childhood education so it was okay. Hooray!

I looked like a complete baboon when I jumped inside the Admissions' office when I realized that I passed my third choice. I gave two thumbs-up to Ate Rosie and to Sceiy and I didn't care if there was an extremely cute guy, who saw what I did. At least, I made him smile..haha.

I texted everyone to spread the "good news". They all said they were happy for me because I got accepted. They even said, "Sabi sa iyo eh, kaya mo 'yan". I made it, and I did it...but this wouldn't be possible without them and God. They gave me the inspiration to be strong. They helped me. And I thanked them. I mean it.

Since La Salle is trimester, I only have few days left to enjoy my vacation. This coming May, I would be busy running back and forth to Taft to enroll, to have my medical and dental check-up, to have my Id picture taken and to attend my two-day orientation. In three weeks or four, I would be moving to my dorm and on May 23, it will be the start of our classes. It makes me feel sad, but it also makes me feel good because my La Salle dream has come true. Like what Audrey said, "Ate Dana, LASALISTA ka na!". Oh yeah!

"Too Many Good-byes"

If you were fond of reading Sweet Valley Junior High series of Francine Pascal, you might get the reason why I put quotations in my title. But if you're not, okay, I'll explain. "Too Many Good-byes" is actually the title of one of the series. I've read it more than twice, and it is a very old resident in my book shelf, (I got it when I was 11 years old) together with my Nancy Drews, Harry Potters and other novels. Why am I telling you these? Because, my topic today is about good-byes..."too many good-byes".

Three weeks have passed since our graduation. All of us were afraid, my classmates and me. Yes, we were afraid to let go of each other. We were afraid to face the reality that we may not see each other next school year. We loved and respected each other. We liked each other's company. We cried of course. Although we were afraid to say good-bye that day, we were also brave enough to go one step further...one step further towards our goals and dreams.

Four days have passed too, since Mikee left for States. Well, she's one of my beloved cousin/niece. I miss her, really. It's sad and painful to say good bye to her, but we need to move on, right? Maybe, we are ocean's apart now, but I'm still grateful because we still have communication. I can still feel her presence, even if she's very far away.

Good-bye St.Scho, good-bye classmates, good-bye friends, good-bye teachers, good-bye highschool life...

Yes, there were too many good-byes but those good-byes don't mean really "good-bye" because we will see each other again. We don't know when, only time can tell, but I'm looking forward to that day...I'm looking forward to seeing them again. Maybe, when that day comes, we are all professionals and successful and even married and have our own families! Hahaha. Well, I'm really getting excited now. Hahaha. And oh, before I forget, the first thing that I will do when I see them again, I will hug them and say, "I missed you..very, very much!".

Have a great summer everyone!!!

Just Taking a Look

After my exam at St. Scho Manila yesterday, my aunt took me to Tahilan, the dorm, which our family friend recommended to us. Well, it's beautiful. The staff were so nice, friendly and accomodating. They let me feel at home, even if we're just there to obeserve and take a look at the place. I even met some of the "residents" there.

Honestly, I like the place. I'm looking forward to staying there if ever I pass St. Scho or DLSU. I want to meet new people. I feel that I'm beginning to come out of my shell, which is good.

My classmates Joy, Jalvin, Mela and Marita were there too, in Taft. They were also looking for a dorm where they could stay. I'm happy to hear that they found one near St. Scho. That means, we could spend some time together every weekends.

BUT, I still have to look at the dorm above the Yellowcab pizza in Taft. That is recommended by a family friend too. I need to see the place...but when? I don't know...

I'm excited. I'm happy. I wonder what the future is preparing for me...

A Fun Week

I had fun this week with my classmates. Although we had physics classes to complete some "legal" requirements, we still had fun.

My classmates are the ones who make my highschool life complete. Without them, it wouldn't be so much meaningful and colorful. Here are some pictures of us taken this week while we do nothing...haha.

From left upward: With Gem, Mica; Joy, Dana, and Kay; Kay and Dana with Joy at the back; Karmin, Mikee, Betsy; With Camille; With Katkat; Dana, Mau, Joan, Tiffy and Ekai; Dana, Jalvin, Judith and Sceiy. (Taken last St. Humbeline's Feastday and ordinary class day.)

Nakakapanghinayang

"Nakakapanghinayang." Ito ang salitang aking nasambit sa aking sarili nang makita ko ang liham para sa akin mula sa Unibersidad ng Pilipinas. Ilang puntos na lang, pasado na ako. Talagang nakakapanghinayang. Isa sa mga pangarap ko ang makapasa sa UP dahil ito ay isang karangalan lalo na sa mag-aaral na katulad ko. Marami ang nabibigyan ng pagkakataon na makakuha ng pagsusulit doon, ngunit iilan lamang ang nakakapasa [roon]. At ako ay kabilang sa mga mapalad na hindi nakapasa sa nasabing unibersidad.

Ako ay muling nanghinayang nang makita ko ang resulta ng aking pagsusulit sa Filipino. Ako ay nakapasa. Mabuti naman at ako ay nagpapasalamat. Ngunit, dahil hindi ako naging maingat sa pagsasagot, ako ay nagkaroon ng limang mali. Kung ako ay naging maingat, mas mataas na marka sana ang aking nakuha. Kung binasa ko ng maigi ang mga nakasulat sa papel, hindi sana ako magkakamali. Sana, sana, sana. Lagi nalang sana.

Ang lahat ng ito ay nakalipas na. Hindi na maibabalik. Wala na akong magagawa. Ngunit, sayang pa rin.

Kaya ako ay nangako sa aking sarili, pagbubutihan ko na sa susunod. Magiging maingat na ako upang hindi na muli ako manghinayang.

Paalam at magandang gabi sa inyong lahat!

A Realization about Life's Journey

"God understands that we are not strong all the time. Sometimes, all we can do is rest on His arms as He takes us thru life's journey."

Isn't that quote meaningful? Simple yet deep. It is quite related with what I'm experiencing right now. I, together with my classmates, am preparing for such an important event in our lives--- our graduation. We are all taking a new step to our future. We are slowly entering the next chapter of our lives...

The quote saying is true. We are not strong all the time, and God knows and understands it. There are times when we don't trust ourselves and we feel wasted, down and bad. We feel pressured because there are people who expect a lot from us. And yet, we succeed. Sometimes, we keep asking ourselves, paano nangyari 'yon?

For the past sixteen years of living happily and lively here on the planet earth, I realized that as we take this long, long journey called life, God is always here with us. Although, we can't see Him, His presence is within us. He continues to guide us, wherever we go. He helps us in every decision that we make. Remember Footprints in the Sand? That proves it.

So let us not say that God doesn't love us. He loves us. Period.

And now, as the end of March is fast approaching, I'm ready to face what the future is preparing for me...for us...for my fellow highschool seniors. I'm ready to take every step that leads towards my dream. I will not be afraid, because I know that I can pass every obstacle that will come my way. And God is holding my hand, protecting me as He takes me "thru life's journey".

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By the way, I got my form from DLSU. This is another chance. I will grab it, and not let it slip. My only hopes are my grades and the admissions' decision. I wish I could make it.

I call this day "The Day"

Today is Friday. It is one of the days of the week that I like best because it means weekend, and when it is weekend, it means rest, play, watch t.v., and gala. This Friday is so special because today is the cheering competition and sports fest of ABS or Association of the Benedictine Schools held in Pampanga. Of course, our school, St. Scho, belongs to that group because it is indeed a Benedictine school. St. Scho is the twin sister of St. Benedict, remember? Anyway, besides the cheering and the sports fest, today is also the card-giving day. Card-giving day means half-day, and when it means half-day, it means excellent and cool. Hahaha.

Since more than half of our classmates are in Pampanga, we are only 13 in the classroom. So "many". We just did some seatwork, research work and OSB with the teachers. By the way, OSB means over-sa-bonding. So Benedictine!

I remember that I feel some butterflies are flying inside my tummy whenever I think about my card grades. Unfortunately, my father and auntie weren't able to come in school to get my card so somebody in the family just got it instead-- my cousin. I feel nervous because I imagine that my grades became lower, since I was not satisfied with my periodical exam results in Math, CLE, Economics and Filipino. Haaay. I just keep my keep my fingers crossed and expect for the worst, not the best.

Until...

I just received two good news today. These news really made me very happy. I even jumped and jumped and jumped and jumped. Here they are:

1. The basketball varsity of our school won the two basketball games. According to Sceiy's dad, it's a history. Anyway, I'm so proud of them. Go, go, go Westgrove!!!!!

2. I saw my card grades. Yeah, right. My Filipino, Economics, THE (home eco), and MAPEH grades are lower..only 2-3 points, but still, lower. And I expected these. On the other hand, with so much surprise, my CLE, English, Physics, Catechism and Homeroom grades became higher. My math grade is still the same. Fair enough. My conduct also became VG. Really surprising...hahaha... I was "noisy" this third quarter...hahaha...anyway, my average got higher... that's why. Again, really surprising. Expect the unexpected. Thank you, God!!!!

Friday...one of the best days of the week...and yet I'm looking forward to tomorrow... I will go to DLSU- Manila...I have a "mission"...wish me luck...thank you very much...

This is "The Day"...and it is a wrap.

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Since it is the month of love...

"Love is everywhere" again. Hearts and cupids are commonly seen in malls and other public places. Flowers, chocolates and teddy bears are almost sold out in stores. Couples gather together as they hold hands and exchange sweet emotions. Love songs are played on different radio stations. Wow, everybody is getting "mushy" and all that, if you know what I mean.

Yesterday, Joy, Ell, and I ate at the canteen. We were talking about being sleepy, specially during CLE, and other school stuff...until Joy asked Ell if she has a crush...and then Ell asked me if I have a boyfriend. Stunned, I answered, "None!". Honestly, during that time, I was really speechless...

And yet there's another one. At the library a while ago, my physics groupmates and me went there for some researching about heat transfer. As I was reading about conduction, I heard some of my groupmates talking about boyfriends and dates. Then suddenly, Marita shared something about her encounter with my quince partner. (Quince is the short term for Quincenera. It's like a prom.) She told me that he greeted her when he saw her at SM. Oh no, not again! Not about guys again!!!

Since I entered senior year, I always hear some of my classmates talk about boys. It's really surprising because they're not like that before. It's natural for girls our age talk about something like boys. And maybe, that means they're beginning to "bloom" like a flower under the sun-lit sky. In fact, some of them already have had boyfriends.

Sometimes, I wonder, how come they experience that? How about me? Well, maybe it is not yet the time, and I'm not ready for such a commitment. I'm still sixteen...and there are still time for it...a lot of time, actually. Why hurry, right?

*Happy Valentines!!!!!*

***For Pedro and Juan, Happy Valentines!!!***

**Enjoy this day...**

*Well, I know you do.*

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Happy and Sad

I'm having the best times of my life in school these past few days. The classes are shortened period because we have to practice for two hours every afternoon before dismissal for our field demo on Family Day. I fool around with some of my classmates and exchange jokes with them (actually, those jokes are kind of corny..haha). I have a "band practice" in our service maybe twice a week with my servicemates, Janelle and Audrey, and sometimes with Mikee. (Janelle-the vocalist, Audrey-the drummer, Mikee-the bassist, Dana- the guitarist...kuno...we still don't have the name but we have a manager, Carla, our grade three cousin...haha...) I pretend to play the guitar because I really don't know how to play that musical instrument although I can read the chords. And, I get to laugh a lot because I'm enjoying the company of my classmates.

This week, I'm looking forward to weekend because I'm going to Quezon City. Perhaps, it will be my second home from now on. I will stay there every weekend because my dear Auntie Lucy is recovering from her sickness. My trips to Quezon City will only stop as soon as she's fully recovered and ready to come back home in Calamba.

I'm sad because she's not staying here (in Calamba), even if it's only temporary. The house seems empty without her. It's like something is missing. I miss her, really. She's like my mother because I grew up with her. Auntie Sari always tells me that I need not to worry because she's going to be fine...that she's going back to her old self--- the healthy and cheerful Auntie Lucy.

I'm thankful to those people who pray hard for her recovery. The latest news that I heard is that she's gaining appetite. That's good news for me.

Anyway, before I end this entry, the band Hale (composed of Champ, Sheldon, Roll and Omni) will perform on our Family Day on the eleventh day of February. If you're interested to watch them, you are invited to come. Thank you. =)

*I wish Spongecola will perform too, but they are not...sad.*

*Advance Happy Valentines!!!*

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How I Wish...

I have wishes that I want to come true. Yes, I do hope they will. These wishes give me hope, so I could fulfill my dreams. Here are some of my wishes:

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* I wish that my dear Auntie Lucy will recover as soon as possible from her sickness. Honestly, I miss her very much. I always look forward to visiting her in Manila every weekend. Whoever reads this blog, please help me pray for her...thank you.

* I wish that my DLSU and UST reports won't have conflicts. It is my dream to study in DLSU to pursue my early childhood education course. On the other hand, I also want to pursue my undergraduate degree in Biology because it's Biology. It's not just any course..it's Biology, people! Waaa...Biology!!!

*I wish that God will help me to make the right decisions.

* I wish that my last two months in St. Scho will be much better. I'm actually really enjoying the company of my classmates. I love them. =)

* I wish that my grades are the same as last quarter. I have this funny feeling that they become lower this third quarter. I hope I'm wrong, really.

* I wish that the candidates for the next May elections will really do their plans for our country, whatever they are and not just keep on promising. Our country needs statesmen (by the way, not politician) who are responsible and willing to change the status of the country. (Wow! Haha)

* I wish to find and buy an original DVD of Princess Hours...haha...

* I wish to see Spongecola again and again and again and again and again and again and again. =)

* I wish to be a good writer...hahaha....

* Lastly, I wish that my dreams will come true!!!

* I wish you all the best Ms. Whenn... Happy Birthday!!! =)

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It is Not Yet the End...

The first month of the year had not been really good to me. In fact, I cried almost everyday. Why? Because I already got the results of my entrance exams from the four schools which I applied for college. Really, they were surprising.

Honestly, I didn't pass Ateneo and UP, thank you very much. The news of not passing those schools really made me sad. Because of that, I developed low self-esteem again. I felt I was stupid for not passing them. I wished to go back to the past to correct my mistakes. But it's too late. What made me feel more stupid was the course that I applied for which was Biology. I suddenly realized that it's a quota course and only a certain number of students are accepted for it. I wished I chose the course which was non-quota so I could pass the test then shift to the course that I really wanted afterwards. Again, it was too late. I didn't have the time machine to go back to the past. I didn't have the watch, which Travis received from the mysterious man, to change everything. (By the way, that's from Sana Maulit Muli, a primetime show on ABS-CBN) I felt depressed for more than a week, and I brought that depression in school, when we came back there after the Christmas vacation.

As I was thinking about these "failures", I realized that it was not yet the end. Maybe, God gave me these because he had better plans for me. It was hard to accept failures in the first place, but I had to. These made me stronger. I began to develop a higher self-esteem, which was good. I began to trust myself.

Yesteday, I went to De La Salle Manila. I asked about the results of my examination. The admissions told me that my GNP, whatever it was, was good. I got an 88. Mathematics and the Mental Ability Test were the "suspects" why I didn't pass my first choice (Biology). They didn't reach a certain grade. I accepted Math, because it was expected but Mental Ability Test? Pleeaase!!! I even joked Joy, my dear friend and my dear classmate, that I came from the Mental Hospital and forgot to drink my medicine so it's understandable. Hahaha. But, before I left the admissions building of De La Salle Manila, I felt good. The admissions office was giving me a consideration because they saw my eagerness to study there. The people there told me to visit their website, which I usually do, to be informed so I could complete the requirements that I need.

God gave me this opportunity to start again, to trust myself again. He was giving me the ray of hope. I have 50-50% chance of passing DLSU, but at least, there's still a chance. Maybe, He gave this because he knew how eager I am to study there. On my way to Quiapo, I received text messages from my classmates saying that I passed UST. I passed my first course which was Biology and I was wait-listed in my second course, which was Pre-Com (commerce). I thanked God for he's so good.

It's not yet the end. Don't give up. I can do it. It's just the beginning...

Just Because

This song reminds me of something. I hear this sometimes inside the classroom because some of my classmates are singing it. This song is very memorable to me because it reminds me of different events that become a part of my highschool life. First, this song is used by the band, Crisscross, when they auditioned for Youthfest, held at Don Bosco Canlubang last January 13. Of course, our band was accepted and they're in for the finals. (The members of the band are my classmates and I'm proud of it. Go girl power!) Second, I just love the song. I don't know why. Maybe, it's just because. Anyway, here it is, Hiling by Paramita:

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Hiling

by Paramita

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Nahihirapan na ang aking isip

nauubusan na ng sasabihin sa iyo...

nanlalamig na ba ang pag-ibig mo sa 'kin...

giliw...

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Nalilito ako, nais kong sagipin ang ating

nalulunod na pag-ibig

ngunit handa akong palayain ka

kung ito ang iyong hiling

gaano mang kasakit sa akin

ibibigay sa iyo

ang tanging pakiusap lang

'wag mo akong kalimutan...

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Kay rami nang nagdaan

na pagsubok sa ating pag-ibig

kakayanin pa kayang mabawi pa

ang mga nasabi na masasakit na salita

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Kung ito ang iyong hiling

gaano mang kasakit sa akin

ibibigay sa iyo...

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Nanlalamig na ba ang pag-ibig mo?

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Go Princess!!!

Happy New Year everyone! This is my first entry for the Year of the Golden Pig. I've been idle for a while when it comes to updating my blog because I'm busy with school work. I just finished taking up our third quarter periodical exams last week. I'm so relieved now that it's done. I'm just waiting for the results which make me nervous because I feel that I have low grades even if I feel that I did my best. Ngee. Ang labo nun. Hahaha. Anyway, that's life, isn't it?

Recently, my classmates and I are fussing about this certain show on TV which airs everynight. When I come to school, the first things that I hear in the classroom are the names of Janelle, Gian, Troy and Monique. There are laughter and "kilig" when those names are being mentioned. Some of my classmates feel sad when they miss one episode of the show. I, on the other hand, will stop what I do to watch the show. I continue whatever it is or whatever they are after that, so I end up sleeping late. Even my aunt who usually sleeps earlier than I am hits the bed at around eleven in the evening just to finish watching an episode of that show. Oh my, oh my. We are truly addicted to it! Hahaha.

I never thought and it never came to my mind that I would appreciate a Koreanovela. When Lovers in Paris was introduced in the Philippines, and when I saw its trailer on TV, I even laughed at it. When I saw our househelp looking at the trailer, I looked at her with "not-another-trying-hard-Asian-novela-on-TV" look. I even said that the protagonist really looked like a maid and she really fitted the role. I was mean. But I ate those things when I began watching it. I got hooked to it and felt sad when it ended. After that, I watched different Koreanovelas simultaneously. I even watched Meteor Garden but I'm not a fan of F4. I find them corny though. Hahaha. Among those Koreanovelas that I love are Full House, My Girl and Princess Hours.

That's it! Princess Hours! That is the show that my classmates and I are fussing about everyday. We even text each other to remind ourselves that Maging Sino Ka Man is over (the show before Princess Hours). We all hate Monique because she's such an ugly loser. Well, she's not ugly. In fact, she is pretty but we all hate her because she makes Janelle's life miserable. Anyway, that's what villains do right? Hahaha. My classmates, with my exception, fall immediately for Prince Troy because he's cute, quiet, smiling and humble. Yeah, that's true. Prince Gian is like him too, for they are cousins. Their only difference is that he's so serious. He often smiles, minds his own business, not so outspoken and married to Janelle. Gian is also cute, specially when he smiles. On the other hand, Janelle is the exact opposite of Gian. She's funny, outspoken and free-spirited.

My classmates and I love this show because it's lovely and funny. Though the plot is like Cinderella's and the characters seem to be based on the Royal Family in England, there's something on it that makes us addicted to it. We kind of relate to Princess Hours because it is highschool. We both experience the same things: the crushes, the "kikay" stuff, the friends, the family, the school and the love for music. We're just different in one thing: we are not yet married.

I won't narrate everything on this entry. See it for yourself or buy its DVD. You won't lose anything if you try...Shield on!!!

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Thank Yous

How often do we hear someone say "thank you"? Nowadays, I only hear few people say that. I wonder, how come people don't say that anymore? What happened to the values and the good manners that our parents taught us? Are they gone?

It is very important to say "thank you" especially when someone did something good to us. It shows that we are grateful for what that person did. Don't forget to say thank you.

In two days, Christmas is here. I believe that we'll receive gifts from our loved ones, friends and those who care for us. Let's say thank you for they remember us, especially in this season of love, joy and giving.

Merry Christmas and thank you to all!!!!

Pasko Na...

Disyembre na. Lumalamig nanaman ang simoy ng hangin. Nagkalat ang mga makukulay na ilaw at mga parol sa bawat tahanan. Dumarami ang mga nagtitinda ng bibingka at puto- bumbong. Ang mga tao ay nagdadagsahan sa mga malls upang mamili ng mga pangregalo sa kanilang mga kamag-anak at mga mahal sa buhay. Maririnig sa bawat radyo at telebisyon ang mga kantang Pamasko. Ang mga bata ay kumakatok sa mga bahay-bahay upang mag karoling. Sa pagsapit ng Disyembre 15 at 16, mapupuno ang mga simbahan ng mga tao dahil mag-uumpisa na muli ang simbang gabi. Unti-unti nang nararamdaman ang diwa ng Pasko sa paligid. Ilang tulog nalang, Pasko na.

Ang Pasko ay isa sa mga araw na aking kinasasabikan. Tuwing Pasko, ang aming pamilya ay nabubuo at ang aming mga tiyo, tiya at mga pinsan na nasa malayo ay umuuwi ng Pilipinas upang magdiwang ng Pasko rito. Kami ay nabibigyan ng pagkakataon na magkasama-sama muli. Masaya ang Pasko rito, tama ba?

Ngunit, ang diwa ng Pasko ay hindi lamang makikita sa mga regalo, mga pagkaing masasarap tulad ng lechon at leche flan. Lagi nating paka tandaan na ang Pasko ay ang panahon ng pagpapatawad, pagbibigayan at pagmamahalan. Ito rin ang araw na si Hesus ay isinilang ni Maria. Kung hindi dahil sa kanya, wala ang Pasko. Dapat tayong magpasalamat sa lahat ng mga biyayang natatanggap natin sa araw-araw. Huwag nating iisipin na hindi tayo mahal ng Diyos dahil mahal na mahal niya tayo.

*Tayo ay magpasalamat din dahil hindi tayo dinaanan ng bagyong Reming. Ngunit, ating ipagdasal ang mga nasalanta at naapektuhan ng bagyo.

Simple Things Can Make Others Happy?

On my way home today, I laughed so hard that my tummy got hurt. Mikee, Janelle, Audrey, Maricar and I were teasing Yya, one of our servicemates. It was fun teasing her..haha. No, we were not bullying her. The most fun part of it was she laughed with us too. She's just a good sport.

We were noisy, very noisy. Because of our laughter, we didn't got the chance to hear the shout out of Maricar. She texted 97.1 LSFM and greeted everybody inside the van. She even requested for the song Define by Hilera (is my spelling right?). I only heard "Mikee, Dana, Audrey and Janelle" but the rest, I didn't. Fortunately, the DJ granted the requested song. We even sang the chorus (the chorus is the only part that we do know, well, except for Mikee who knows the whole song..haha). We sang it intentionally not only to express ourselves but to tease Yya again. She laughed so hard because she heard me say, "Un lang ung alam kong part. Hindi ko na alam ung susunod.."

I have this realization that making others happy is quite difficult. It is not easy to please people. Yes, that is true. There are different kinds of people, with diffirent kinds of characteristics and attitudes. Like what M. Lee said on his blog, "Never be a people-pleaser. It will only hurt you". But I think it will not hurt you so much if you are true and honest to yourself. Be careful too because one wrong step can make a such bad impression. Nowadays, people are so judgemental. They look at the book by its cover and they even make criticisms that can destroy its inner self. Be careful. Be strong. Be ready to face reality. Remember, reality bites and it hurts...a lot.

Simple things can make others happy, do you believe in this too?

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Below is the song that really makes us really..uh..hyper specially when Yya is around..haha..

"Failed again so just leave me alone, define! Define! Define!

Failed again so just leave me alone, define! Define! Define!"

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---000End000---

A Taste of Mango Cake

After a month of making "parinig" to my aunties, my wish has been granted. Auntie Sari, who plays the piano very well, buys me a mango cake from Red Ribbon. Receiving a chocolate or a mango cake is my wish even before my sixteenth birthday. I've just been dreaming about it one day then one night, while having a dinner with Auntie Lucy, I suddenly talked about chocolate cake and mango cake from Red Ribbon. I thought Auntie Lucy will buy me either of the two because she's nodding her head as I say that Red Ribbon is one of the bake shops here in the Philippines who makes the best cakes in town. *sigh* On the day of my birthday, there is no cake at all. Sad.

Since then, everytime we have our weekly family gatherings here at home, I always do not forget to mention about my dream cakes from Red Ribbon. Whenever I talk about them, they become quiet then ask me if I really wanted a cake. Of course I do! Though it sounds narrow, having my dream about cakes fulfilled will make me so happy.

A while ago, when they arrived, Auntie Sari called me. I was finished greeting Auntie Tita and my dad. I went to Auntie Sari to greet her as well then I saw that she was holding something inside the plastic bag of Red Ribbon. I asked blessing from her as usual, hugged and kissed her. Then, she told me that the cake's for me. I was really surprised! I even jumped for joy. See, I'm such a narrow person. Haha.

We ate the cake before they left for Manila. We even shared it with our household. As I was eating the cake, I was so happy. My aunts were looking and smiling at each other. Well, I looked at them with hey-it-is-my-dream-to-eat-a-mango-cake-and-now-it -is-granted-so-I'm-happy look. Haha.

This day is such a great day, and I wish it will be longer. Wishes. Tomorrow will be quite a different day from today so I must look forward to it. At least, I got the chance to taste a mango cake.

=)

Strawberries, Word Search, Yael Yuzon and the rest of Spongecola and Ice Cream

I have eaten and tasted strawberries today. They are not the actual strawberries fresh from Baguio but I have the chance to taste them again after so many months or years I guess. Ate Rosie served me oatmeal for breakfast today. The oatmeal was a strawberry- flavored one. Maybe, for some of you, it tastes yucky or disgusting but it tastes good for me. Honestly, I like it! Hahaha. During recess, Ayeen, our classmate, gave each one of us a share of strawberry cheesecake. It was sweet and yummy! I liked it too! She baked them herself. Sweet!

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During Filipino time today, the last subject, Ms. Jane, our Filipino teacher, gave us the chance to practice for the English Month culminating activity. As I said, I was a part of the broadcasting and our group was finished recording so I didn't do anything. I just borrowed Mau's Word Search which she bought from Book Sale who came to our school to sell their products, particularly books and magazines, what else? Last week, Scholastic came to our school as well to sell books and other stuff which are related to reading. Unfortunately, I wasn't able to buy anything from both of them because I didn't have the money (I was really longing for the HP set). Anyway, I borrowed Mau's Word Search and searched for the words until the bell rang. Whew! I finished everything! Hahaha.

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Last November 22, it was Yael Yuzon's (vocalist of Spongecola) birthday. It was also Mau's, Mikee's and even Joan's birthday. Joan told me that it was my birthday as well. Wow! But I think my birthday is on the birthday of Chris Cantada, the drummer. Hahaha.

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Last Thursday, I borrowed Mau's magazine which featured Spongecola. During the clubmeeting, as the Alto and the Soprano 1 sang and practiced for the Himig Harana and as my fellow Soprano 2 members were waiting for our turn, I read the magazine. I was amazed! Hahaha. Yael has 21 pairs of shoes (I wish he would share. Remember, Barney says "Share". Haha.), Armo has his own rock world (He's a good example of a rocker.), Gosh gets his ideas everywhere (His song writing ability is so great specially when he writes a deep Tagalog song.) and Chris is just simply inspired by his loved ones). Wow, they are really talented people. You rock! =)

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Today, I have dreamt of eating two scoops of pistachio ice cream in a very large cone. Hmmm. Yummy. When we go to Festival Mall or ATC, I will definitely buy one!=)

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So long and good night...

So long and good night...

Tulad ng Isang Makata

Ang nakalipas na linggong ito ay nagdulot sa akin ng lungkot at saya. Maraming mga pangyayari ang nangyari na hindi ko inaasahan. Ayon nga sa aking kamag- aral na si Jalvin, na siya ring aking katabi sa upuan, napapansin nya na ako ay laging wala sa sarili. Kahit ako man, hindi ko maipaliwanag kung bakit ako nagkakaganito. Marahil, ako ay kinakabahan sa paglabas ng aking mga grado dahil sa aking pakiramdam, ako ay bumaba at nag- iisip ng kung anu- ano pa.

Noong Miyerkules, nagpalit na kami ng upuan sa silid aralan. Bago ako ay lumipat, ako ay nasa ikalawang hanay na malapit sa pisara. Nagpaalam na ako sa bintana na naging bahagi rin ng aking unang semester dahil naging katabi ko siya. Dahil sa bintanang yoon, natutunan ko na bigyang halaga ang kalikasan at ang buong paligid. Totoo na nabigyan ko ng halaga ang kalikasan dahil sa tuwing ako ay inaantok sa klase o sa tuwing sumasakit ang aking mga mata dahil sa tindi ng sikat ng araw, tumitingin lamang ako sa bundok at sa mga puno. Totoo rin pala na ang kulay luntian ay nakakabuti sa pakiramdam. Nagpaalam din ako sa aking mga kamag- aral na nasa aking paligid tulad nila Kay, Mikee, Mica at Kristine. Nakakalungkot ngunit kailangang tanggapin. Ngayong ikalawang semester, ako ay nasa ika-apat na hanay, sa may gitna. Hindi ko na katabi ang bintana. Katabi ko na ngayon ang pintuan at katabi ko pa rin ang kamag- aral kong si Jalvin. Wow! Sabi nga nina Mau, "Solid!". Totoo nga naman dahil kahit saan, lagi kaming magkatabi--- sa linya, sa tuwing may misa o pananghalian at siyempre, sa silid aralan.

Kanina rin, nakita ko na ang aking mga grado. Ako ay kinabahan dahil ang tagal ng aking tiya sa loob ng aming silid aralan. Ang tagal ng pag- uusap nila ng aming guro. Hindi ako mapakali sa labas habang naghihintay sa kanya. Marami na rin ang dumaan sa aking harapan tulad nina Sr. Regina, ang aming "directress" at ilang mga magulang ng aking mga kamag- aral at ng iba pang mag- aaral sa mataas na paaralan. Lumuwag ang aking pakiramdam nang siya ay lumabas. Natakot ako dahil mukha siyang malungkot. Sinabi ko sa sarili ko na, "Dana, hala, lagot, maghanda ka na. Bumaba nga talaga siguro ang iyong mga grado." Tapos nang tumingin siya sa akin, ipinakita ang aking card at bigla siyang tumawa. Ang aking tiya talaga. Ako ay nakapasa! Mabuhay!

(Masaya rin pala ang aming klase sa Pisika noong Miyerkules. Hahaha. Natutuwa ako. Kaya lang, hindi ako gaanong nabasa. Hahaha.)

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Ako ay nagpapasalamat sa mga sumusunod:

God

Aking pamilya at mga kapamilya

Mga Guro

Mga Kamag- aral

Matalik na mga Kaibigan

Kaibigan

At sa mga taong hindi ko nabanggit, salamat ng marami!

God Bless You!!!

Espesyal na pasasalamat din kay Jalvin Corrales...dahil sa tulong, pagtitiyaga at pagpapasensya niya, tumaas ako sa accounting... =)

The Strange Kid

I've been asking myself, "Am I strange?". Well, I guess, I am. I feel that I'm not myself lately. I keep on making mistakes, though it's normal to make mistakes because no one's perfect, right? But, really, I'm not myself since last week. I become sad then happy, sensitive then annoyed. In short, I become a little bit moody, but why? I also feel paranoid. Yes, I feel paranoid. I feel that somebody is annoyed with me as well. I feel that some people turn their backs whenever I come near them. Is that normal?

Besides being paranoid, I'm also thinking about my grades. The card- giving day is on Friday. "Waaaaaaaa!" is all that I could say. I feel that my grades are lower this second quarter because I got low in Physics. I may not be able to have the merit card again. *sigh* But I think, it's better not to expect for any because I don't want to be disappointed. I don't want to cry over my grades again. It's my fault anyway. I should have studied more and focused more on my studies. I should have more time to study my lessons.

I know I shouldn't feel this way and I must think positive which is the right thing to do. I must think positive. I must accept whatever comes to me because it is according to God's plan. He has good plans for me. If ever my grades were even lower this quarter, I know what to do. I must have a goal and achieve it. I mustn't be paranoid too because I might be thinking wrong. I should treat these things as a challenge for me so I could stand up from my fall. I will achieve my goals too. I know I will. Maybe this isn't the right time but I believe it will come...it will come...

What a Day, People!

There were so many things that happened to me today and I felt different emotions as well. I became happy, hyper, excited, nervous and annoyed but not in the same time. Like what I said yesterday, the glee club was invited to perform at Alabang Town Center for the 8th anniversary of Westgrove. Wow, there were people, the "mall- goers", who watched us perform. The high school and grade school dance troupe did very well and I gave them two thumbs up for their beautiful performance. Actually, while they were dancing, I was worried because some of them might fall down the stage because it was too small. Anyway, they managed to dance gracefully and well and the audience really liked their performance, so I didn't worry too much afterwards. The glee club sang also well and I just realized how surprised I was when somebody in the audience shouted "More! More!". Unfortunately, we didn't sing again because we didn't have any songs to sing..haha..maybe next time..if there is a next time...haha. Those were the reasons why I was happy.

I asked myself, "Why do some people specially those you have known and known you or those you have met before actually don't greet you?". I mean, you were already facing them and it was obvious that you were looking straight at them then you started to smile a little bit then they were looking at you too but they didn't smile back at you. How would you feel? OUCH! It was like you didn't exist! Paano naman ung mga pinagsamahan niyo? Well, I just thought about that, because I observed that it's common nowadays. I mean, it hurts. It really hurts. And I understand the people who experienced that.

I also observed that some people become kill joy. I don't understand why. I mean, the people around them are being nice, friendly and kind to them but in return, they just wear that sour face look, they do the "dabog", murmur something behind you and answer back at you. Honestly, it annoys me. It annoys me a lot. How come they are like that? People.

I just realized that the best thing to do is ignore them as well. It's their problem, not mine. I hope that somehow, they will change that kind of attitude because it's not good. It will not bring them good and they should think about others. They must be considerate enough for the people who care for them.

My aunt and I went to Festival Mall to attend the Holy Mass. It was an anticipated mass so we need not to worry about waking up early tomorrow..haha. The Holy Mass calmed me down. I forgot how to be annoyed with kill joy and snob people and I really felt good. After the Mass, I bought myself an ice cream, a waffle and a mango shake. Haha.

Since I talked about "people", (I mentioned a lot of "people" in my blog today, didn't I? haha) I saw some people whom I know a while ago in Alabang Town Center and in Festival Mall. I saw some of my classmates who watched our performance in ATC, (Thank you for coming and for supporting us!) my former school mates and an old friend. I was happy to see them all and they made me happy too!

This day, I also thank God that He gave us this wonderful opportunity to meet different kinds of people. It teaches us how to be patient and to be understanding to them. The people whom we meet teach each one of us too to be strong to be a better person. Without them, we wouldn't be the way that we are today. Lastly, I thank those people who touch my life and they become my inspiration to love the life that God has given me. Again, thank you!

By the way, today is Mama's birthday. Happy Birthday Mama! I love you! God bless and take care! =)

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Special

Today, I feel nervous and excited at the same time because the highschool glee club and the dance troupe will perform at Alabang Town Center tomorrow for the 8th anniversary of Ayala Westgrove Heights. We are included in the celebration because our school is part of the Ayala Westgrove family. I'm nervous and excited because it is my first time to perform in a mall and lots of people will see the performance..haha. Well, anyway, before the dismissal a while ago, our club moderator (glee club) asked for a practice. We will sing two songs which are Someone to Watch Over Me and the never dying song, which we, the members, jokingly say the club's "official theme song", Nearness of You. We sang those songs last February in St. Scho Manila for the celebration of its 100th year. I'm also happy because we will represent the school for this event. I'm looking forward to experiencing this celebration. Good night!

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I'm a little lamb who's lost in the woods

I know I could always be good

to one who'll watch over me...

It's not the pale moon that excites me

that thrills and delights me, oh no

it's just the nearness of you...

Something New

This week has been busy for me and there are surprises that really have surprised me. This month, November, is the English month. Every year, the school always has activities that are related to the English subject such as book fair, book ad, essay writing, class paper making, declamation, speech choir and extemporaneous speeches. This year, there are some changes regarding the activities. The book ad, for example, requires one story to be presented by the highschool unit. The story is Christmas Carol by Charles Dickens. It is a well- loved classic story, as we all know. There is a new activity which is the broadcasting. In here, five to seven students are needed to promote a message that is related to the theme. The theme, by the way, is Reliving Classic Literature Today with Zeal and Dynamism. The students who join this activity will practice and record the message in the school. According to our teacher, any practices outside the school will not be recognized as a school activity.

Our class was given the rules about the said school activities. There are so many and I'm happy because everybody will have the chance to participate. I thought about joining the making of the class paper but it was already full so I "registered" to speech choir and to broadcasting. But then, one of my classmates told me that I should only choose one because there might be a conflict for the practices. During lunch time, I really thought hard and I was thinking about joining broadcasting instead of speech choir. I even asked some of my classmates to give me advices. Before the lunch ended, I told our vice president that I will join broadcasting.

I joined the broadcasting because I realized that I wanted to try something new. Besides, I already joined speech choir before (but it was called choral recitation and it was in Filipino). I don't regret it because I will let my voice, together with my groupmates, be heard to send a message that may hopefully inspire the youth of today specially the little ones, our little sisters in "reliving the classic literature with zeal and dynamism". Thank you and good day!