Sunday, December 30, 2007

My Christmas This Year

My Christmas this year is quite different from the previous years because our family is not complete. We are only few this Christmas and it's really sad, although I enjoyed celebrating it with them. It feels different because I'm so used to celebrating this season with a lot of family members.


Since we were only few, the laughter and the stories were few as well. Our yearly family "pictorial" didn't seem like one because there were only two cameras--- mine and Ate Lilian's. Before, there were a lot of cameras and the pictorials really took a lot of time. I was also disappointed because my cousins from Canada weren't with us. They celebrated Christmas in Quezon City with one of my aunts who is sick. I understood the situation, but I wished they were here instead of being there. My other cousins who live in the other side of Quezon City didn't come for Christmas too. They went to Bacolod to celebrate Christmas there. :'( The only thing that didn't change was, me running out of English words while talking to Luisa and Cente. Haha. :D


Anyway, I hope that next year we are complete. Christmas is not the same without them. And, they missed a lot delicious foods such as lechon, crab, kare-kare, fried chicken, and the yap-yap (small shrimps). Haha.


Before I end this entry, I would like to share with you some of the pictures taken last Christmas: (I also uploaded pictures in friendster and multiply)


Saturday, December 29, 2007

Before I Sleep Tonight...

First of all, I want to greet all of you a very belated Merry Christmas! I hope that you guys have had a wonderful and meaningful Christmas celebration. And I'm sure, everybody enjoyed this season.

Okay, I only have thirty minutes left before I go up to my room and sleep on my bed. You know, even if I'm at home, I still have a curfew. It sounds like c-o-r-n-y, but I have to follow the rule as long as I live here. So, I will go straight to the point, because time is running out.

I love writing new stuff that's why I have my blogs. Like what I said to a previous entry, this is my outlet to express what I think and feel. It is possible that people can see and read my blogs because, hey, this is internet, if you know what I mean. It is wonderful to share thoughts with each other and it is nice to know others who have the same idea as you. I'm just thinking about what my cousin said the last time we've seen each other. Well, she has a point. Let's be careful when we share our thoughts, especially when writing (or typing rather) blogs. We should know our limitations. Don't add and meet people whom you're not connected with. Oh well, when it comes to adding a celebrity, it's a different case. Haha. I turned down some friend requests from people whom I don't know in Friendster. I only accept friend requests that come from people whom I have connection, and of course, from the ones I know personally. This may sound like a cliche, but let's keep in mind what our parents usually tell us before: "Don't talk to strangers". I'm not saying that it's bad to meet new peers. But I think, it is definitely better to meet new friends in person, not thru chatrooms, friendster, or other websites in the cyberspace. So please, be careful. Don't take a risk, because you might not know what would happen. Good night! Ciao! =)

Monday, December 17, 2007

A Writer's Block and Totally Random Thoughts

Right now, I'm experiencing a writer's block. I have a lot of things to say about my dream chocolate cake but unfortunately, I slowly forget all about them. I don't know where to start and I don't know what to say. Gosh. Although my experience with a chocolate cake yesterday is memorable, it seems that somebody has erased that memory of mine in my mind. Sad. I'm totally blank today and I'm wishing that I could write like the way Bianca Gonzales, Saab Magalona and Mikee Lee write. Oh my. This is really not good. I feel like I have amnesia or Alzheimer's or something. I suddenly remember some of my past examinations when I experienced a mental block. Shocks. And now I'm comparing myself to a gold fish! Wow! Why gold fish? Because I've read in a magazine that gold fishes have a short term memory. They only remember things for only like five seconds! Yes, five seconds! OMG. Guys, I think I'm like Dory from Finding Nemo. She's the fish who helped Nemo's father find him. She's the fish who has a happy spirit and the one who keeps on forgetting things--- definitely like me. And, she said the lines, "Just keep swimming...just keep swimming...just keep swimming...". Her voice is the voice of Ellen De Generes. Lucky her. She always has a lot of things to say, like Oprah, and what she says is all impromptu. Waaa. I feel like an old lady who doesn't remember anything at all! I imagine myself having wrinkles on my face and my hair becomes grey then white. Haha. Very funny. Leech. I feel and I look like I lost my sanity. Haay. I'm laughing by myself! Is this the result of having a writer's block? Hey, I'm supposed to write [or type rather], an entry about chocolate cake! Whew. But instead, I ended up writing non-sense stuff. Grrrr. By the way, this is a complete example of random thoughts. Raarrrr.

Sunday, December 16, 2007

Awww...*sigh*

Nine days to go until Christmas. Yay! I'm so excited because my cousins from Canada, and the twins, who came all the way from California and Los Angeles, will celebrate this special day with us. I really want to see them!!! My camera is ready to take pictures of them. Hahaha. Honestly, I'm practicing talking to myself in English in front of the mirror. Hahahaha.

Well, there's one thing that I've realized here. Christmas is meaningful and happy even without expensive gifts, the material things such as new dress and new shoes, and delicious foods. I'm not saying that having those is bad. Of course, it's fine because, honestly, it's wonderful to have something new for Christmas. My point is, even if without those things around, at least you're with the ones you love and you spend this special day together, it's okay. No matter what, as long as you're together, everything will be alright. =)

Friday, December 14, 2007

Takbo! Takbo! Takbo!

Dumating na rin ang araw na pinakahihintay ng mga mag-aaral ng Unibersidad ng Pilipinas. Ngayon ay ang araw ng pagtakbo ng mga kalalakihan na walang saplot sa kanilang katawan. Ito ay ang pinakasikat at walang kamatayang Oblation Run. Taon-taon ko nalang ito nababalitaan sa telebisyon, sa dyaryo, o sa radyo. Hindi ko alam kung bakit at paano ito nag-umpisa. Ngunit, sa aking palagay, ito ay may mahalagang simbolo, hindi lamang sa mga taga-UP kundi maging sa Pilipinas na rin. Dahil ako ay naiintriga sa kasaysayan ng Oblation Run, nais ko na magsaliksik tungkol dito. Subalit, hindi ko muna ito gagawin dahil sasamantalahin ko muna ang bakasyong ito. Gagawin ko muna ang mga bagay na hindi ko nagawa sa nakalipas na tatlong linggo dahil ako ay naging abala sa paggawa ng mga proyekto na binigay sa amin ng mga propesor. Tulad nga ng islogan ng Kit-Kat, "Have a break, have a Kit-Kat".
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Hindi ko pa nararanasan ang manood ng isang tunay Oblation Run. Nakikita ko lamang ito sa telebisyon, sa isang bahagi ng mga balita. Ayon sa iba, ito ay masaya at makabuluhan. Hindi ko naman pinapangarap na mapanood ito ng "live" , dahil hindi pa ako handa na makakita ng mga kalalakihan na tumatakbo ng walang kahit ano sa kanilang katawan, kahit na ako'y nasa tamang edad na. Kung ang mga naliligo nga sa swimming pool na ang tanging suot lang ay trunks sa skul ay hindi ko matingnan ng tuwid, ito pa kayang mga tumatakbo sa kalye na walang suot na trunks? Hahaha.
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Monday, November 19, 2007

I'm Fine, Thank You

Everything is back into its proper place. Mama is not upset anymore. Yey! She brought ice cream then she told me to smile...=) At least, we're okay now and I'm happy! =) So, I have to bid you adieu, because I'll study for our long test tomorrow (chdodev). Remember, I have a goal and I want to achieve it. Wish me luck! Aja! =)
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I LOVE ICE CREAM =)

Sunday, November 18, 2007

What Have I Done?

My aunt and I usually attend mass every Saturday night, thus anticipated mass. My parents and my brother also attend that mass but they don't sit with us because they prefer sitting at the back rather than infront. Anyway, I listened to the homily of the priest. I think that his homily is nice because it talks about "living our lives to the fullest". Our life is not permanent; it's temporary and we will all die. That is why, we should have more reasons to enjoy our lives. We shouldn't sulk in one corner and pity ourselves. Try doing things that will make us happy. For example, finding happiness in simple things like eating ice cream and spending time with the family. FAMILY. That word is stuck in my head. I couldn't forget what he said about hugging each member of the family because there will come a time, we wouldn't have the chance to hug these people anymore. Remember, time changes, and as it changes, people change.

After the mass, at home, I told my mother jokingly yet nicely that she should take care of my father and hug him too because the priest said so in the homily. The priest has a point and in my opinion, he's right. When I told mama these words, I didn't mean anything bad. Is it bad to remind or tell our parents that giving a warm and sincere hug makes someone feel better? Well, I think, in my mother's case, yes, it's bad. She got upset (or maybe angry). She said that she's not that showy and expressive and she takes good care of papa. I answered back. I said, "Mama, wala naman masama kung mag-hug kayo ni papa eh. Kaya ko lang nasabi kasi hindi ko na kayo nakikita na nagha-hug. Di na tulad ng dati..." There was silence. I think my answer "shot" mama. Natigilan si mama. She just repeated what she said and added some more stuff, which I couldn't remember at all. Papa heard everything and he didn't say anything. He was quiet all the time but eventually, he said, "Tama na 'yan." And guess what I did? As usual, I cried...I cried again.

What have I done? Am I a BAD daughter? What's wrong with what I said? I just want to see them hug. What's wrong with giving themselves a hug? Honestly, when someone hugs me, I feel good. And I think I broke mama's heart...OMG. I feel bad...

No More Drama

I think, this is the right time to be serious. I need to be serious to get good grades. I saw my midterm grade in biology yesterday and I'm not satisfied. Although, I passed, I should have given more effort on it. I will also be more serious not only in biology but in other subjects as well such as chdodev and tredone. I need to work harder because I want to get grades not lower than 2.0. Also, I should not give attention to Enchong Dee for the meantime. Next time nalang ang celebrity sight-seeing...hahaha...=) And if ever I get the grades that I want or that will make me satisfied (I hope I will), there's no more drama. I promise! =)

Sunday, November 11, 2007

Something to Think About

At exactly 12:05 AM of the first day of November, my fellow humblebee and former classmate in St. Scho (Karel) sent me a message. As I was scrolling down the keys of my phone, I thought it was a quote about Christmas because there were words that mention Christmas. Anyway, I had goose bumps when I finished the message because I was the only one awake during that time. I just finished watching an episode of Princess Hours which I borrowed from Ell. After reading, I couldn't sleep and I kept thinking about it. This was the message:

Malamig na
ang simoy
ng hangin.
Ramdam mo ba?

Ano kayang dahilan?

Dahil kaya malapit na ang pasko?

O baka naman

Dahil may katabi kang

Multo?

*Goodnight! (smiley)

How about you, dear readers of my blog? (feeling may nagbabasa ng blog ko...hahaha...) What do you think? =)
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Monday, November 05, 2007

Confessions Part Two

Here I am again making another confession. I never thought that I would do it again. I'm so glad that blogger is here. Blogger is one of my "outlets" where I can put all my thoughts and "release" what I feel. Haha. Today, I have another stories to share.

Uwian Na

I did it again. I asked my aunt and tried to convince her if I can go home (in Laguna) after school, although I know that there's no possibility that she'll agree. Of course, she enumerated the reasons that she gave me before like the price of the gasoline is high, the car is too old to go back and forth Manila, and I will get tired. Surprisingly, I didn't say anything this time. I just kept quiet and nodded my head.

I really don't know what's going on with me. I always wanted the uwian way. Perhaps, I miss home--- a lot. Most of my blockmates get envy with us who stay in the dorm because according to them, we're independent and there's no parents who always look and check everything that we do. They say it's cool and fun. Yes, they may be right. Living in the dorm is cool because we learn to be independent and we do silly and fun things. We don't depend on anyone because there's nobody who will take care of ourselves except us. On the contrary, living in the dorm for four days (sometimes five days because we have Saturday classes) is also sad because we miss our families--- our home. Or probably, I'm the only one who feels this way. For six months, I'm still not yet adjusted, really. My room mates and dorm mates are most likely adjusted in this kind of life because I don't see them cry or hear them say, I want to go home. I don't know when I would be adjusted to dorm life. I'm still not losing hope that my wish, the uwian way, would come true someday. Oh, maybe, my wish will be granted when the price of the gasoline will decrease forever and when my parents will have enough money to buy a new car. *sigh*

Loyalty Not Yet Over?

I'm still thinking about that person. I thought I was really over him, but I guess, I'm not. God, please help me forget him. Let me set him free.
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Saturday, October 13, 2007

The Party

Yesterday, I attended the victory party of La Salle. The La Salle Green Archers men's basketball team won the championship game last Sunday against University of the East Warriors. It was really unexpected because UE Warriors were really great players! Anyway, the victory of La Salle was very surprising and a good sign as well. We're really back in the field and we're one!!!

I was with my blockmates-friends and bestfriend, Maggie. But I was with Maggie the whole time. We ran back and forth just to take pictures of the players. I know, it was so like paparazzi, but being there...seeing the players in the flesh...(even if I see them walk around the school every school days...hahaha)...it was indeed exciting.

Here are some of the pictures of the players taken yesterday. I want to share them with you: (some of them may be blurry, sorry...for more pictures, you may visit danadoo.multiply.com)

Bader Malabes and Kish Co The Green Archers Cholo Villanueva

Jvee Casio OJ Cua

Friday, September 21, 2007

How It All Began? (La Salle vs. Ateneo)

Do you ever wonder how the "feud" between the De La Salle University and Ateneo de Manila University began? Do you ever ask yourself why these two big and prestigious universities always compete against each other? Are you interested why they act so "violently" specially during UAAP seasons?

Today, our tredone teacher told us the reason behind all these stuff. I was really surprised and amazed when I heard it. Please let me share the story with you...

In the year 1938, NCAA has two biggest teams, which are De La Salle University and Ateneo de Manila University. During that time, Ateneo was located at Padre Faura in Manila. It transferred to Quezon City because the Jesuits liked the place. Before, that place was purely grass and hill-like. The Jesuits said that in the future, it would be industrialized. So that's why Ateneo is called "Hill of Loyola". Anyway, going back to NCAA, La Salle and Ateneo played against each other. Fortunately, La Salle won. That year, which was 1938, in the midst of the celebration of La Salle, they threw 3 Max Fried Chickens at the gates of Ateneo (Padre Faura). Ateneo was very upset about what happened. So from that time, the feud between the two schools erupted like a volcano. It was not so violent until in the year of 1970, when smashing and hitting of cars became so prevalent. Because of this, Ateneo and La Salle withdrew from NCAA. After some time, Ateneo joined UAAP. But what is Ateneo without La Salle? What is La Salle without Ateneo? So La Salle joined UAAP as well. That's how it all began. That's why La Salle and Ateneo have been so competent against each other...whether in the academic and athletic side.

Speaking of La Salle and Ateneo, I watched the recent game last September 18. I didn't go to Araneta to watch the game. I watched it on TV and I would like to congratulate the Green Archers (wee!!! yey!!!) for winning the game. I owe our winning to Ty Tang and Jvee Casio, who are two of the best members of the team. They are very great players. BUT we need to pray more because there would be another game. We don't know when but we hope for the best. God Bless! =)

Monday, September 17, 2007

Loyalty Over?

Honestly, I don't know how to start this entry. There are so many ideas inside my head, and I don't know which one to put first. Right now, I'm quite confused about something that's been with me for the past...more than three years. Yes, more than three years. (I won't tell the exact year, but it's really record breaking...haha...) There's only one person who's been running inside my mind for all these years. And because this person has a very great and big impact on me, it is really hard to forget everything about him. Oh yes, he's a guy.

My bestfriend is really amazed because I still like the person until now. I've known him since gradeschool and now that I'm in college, I still like him. There are a lot of good guys around but I just ignore them because my attention only lies to this person. Even if I say that I'm crushing on Enchong Dee, the pep squad guy in DLSU, the tostillas guy who just left for a vacation in Canada, and one of the basketball players of DLSU, the truth is...my feelings for this guy are still greater and more than them. It's not only the "crush" thing. Like what I said, I like him. I can't say that I love him, though. But he's really special to me.

For more than three years, he doesn't even know, and he doesn't have any idea that I like him. Oh yes, I have attempts to tell him what I feel, but fear always reigns. I don't have the courage to tell him how I feel. I don't want to risk our friendship because of this silly and funny feeling. So, for all these years that we've known each other, I just keep quiet and act as if I don't like him.

My dear friends, honestly, I'm waiting for the time when he would tell me that he likes me too, and then, it would also be my chance to tell him that I like him, but I doubt it. He only likes me as a friend. I am the only one who has special feelings for him...and I'm quite getting tired of feeling this way. Besides, he likes someone else...

They say that when you really like someone, and you want what's best for him/her to be happy, you have to let go. You have to set him/her free. You may be happy, if there will come a time when you and that someone becomes a couple...but isn't it also sad and pathetic when he/she isn't happy with you? Will you still keep him/her even if he's not happy?

Maybe they are right. Maybe, my bestfriend and my aunt are right. I should move on. I shouldn't keep feeling this way towards him. Oh well, he's not the only guy in this world, right? I know, it's hard to forget him, but little by little, I will learn to forget him. He will always be my friend, and he will always be special to me, but I think, this is the right time to set him free. I want him to be happy. Good thing, I don't see him na. Pwede na siguro magsayaw ng ocho-ocho si bestfriend...haha. If we're really meant to be, then let it be. And yes, I feel good. =)



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*I would like to thank God for making it possible for me to be a Dean's Lister. Thank you.*

Wednesday, September 05, 2007

Not Meant to Be

Destiny. Do you believe in destiny? According to Webster's New World Dictionary, it is the seemingly inevitable succession of events and one's fate. I know some people who believe in destiny. They believe that what's happening in their life now is destined for them--- that destiny is like the "twin" of their life.

Right now, I'm in a situation that really makes me wonder if I would make it to the dean's list. Of course, it is my dream to be one of the dean's listers in La Salle. Well, it is everybody's dream to be in a dean's list, right?

I guess that running back and forth in La Salle is destined for me. In order to achieve my dreams and goals, I need to have patience and faith in God. I don't get what I want easily. There are certain requirements, but this time, it's different. I don't have to visit the admissions office like what I used to do before. I don't have to fall in a long line waiting for a result. This time, I have to wait for my laboratory physics teacher so I could talk to her about my final grade. My final grade in laboratory physics makes me feel bad because I believe that I don't deserve the grade that I got. All of my other subjects are okay( 3.0-3.5)...except this one.

My teacher and I already talked about it. I told her everything that I need to explain. I was never absent in our lab meetings and I never missed a single group lab activity. She said, she'll double-check my grade, and what my group got in those activities, she will put in her record. She even asked me to give her my e-mail address because she'll send me my grades.

I really do hope that there will be a change in my grade. I need "justice". And I don't want to be left hanging in the air...waiting for a miracle to happen.

There may be a change, but I am not hoping that I will be a dean's lister. I'm preparing myself. I want to be ready for the outcomes. I don't want to expect a lot because I don't want to be disappointed in the end. Maybe, this is my fate. Maybe, this is destined for me. Maybe, we are not meant to be. Maybe, this is my destiny. Oh well, there is still a 2nd trimester...and a 3rd trimester. I'll just do better next time. :(



*By the way, I saw him yesterday. I thought that he already left the school. According to his friend, he's leaving on Saturday. And, he's going back on the 3rd trimester. May chance pa ang tostillas. Haha. Happy-happy. =) Happy trip! *

Wednesday, August 29, 2007

I'm Back!

I'm Back! After how many months, I'm back. There are so many things that happened. Some of them are happy moments, while some aren't so happy moments. Honestly, I miss sharing my thoughts here in blogger, and I'm so glad because I can share some of my thoughts here again.


Being a Lasallian makes me feel so good. Life in college may be hard for there are so many paper works, but the stress could be gone because there are people who make them go away. I thought that I wouldn't survive in the university because it is a new place for me, knowing that I grew up from the province. I thought that the people there are sophisticated, classy, and so urban-minded. Maybe, for some, that thinking of mine applies. But not all people from La Salle are like that, trust me. Actually, most of the people whom I met are all friendly and nice. They never let me feel that I'm an outcast or a loner. They always let me feel that I belong. =) I'm very thankful that I have known them...and I believe that they are the ones whom I can go to whenever something bothers me.


I think, I'm already adjusted in the new world where I belong. Perhaps, there are still some who just know someone when they need something, but like what Ate Nina said, it's natural. Ang tamang pakikisama at pag-iintindi lang ang tamang solusyon sa problema na 'yan. It's not only in schools where you can find those kinds of people, but everywhere you go. Hindi sila maiiwasan.


And before I end this entry, it is really sad to hear that someone will soon be leaving, or rather, already left, our school. I may not be close to that person, but I would like to say thank you for a simple greeting that he gave me (even if he doesn't know my name and he knows me by face..haha). Perhaps, you are leaving for good. I hope that you'll enjoy your stay there, and hopefully, when you come back and see us again, you'll be able to know me, not by my face nor by being a friend of someone dear to me, but by name (that sounds like demanding..haha). And, last but not the least, when that time comes, I hope that I can share my tostillas with you again. =)

Monday, July 09, 2007

Lessons from Experiences

School is a place where students, like me, learn. In school, students acquire knowledge and skills that they apply as they grow up to adapt to challenges and changes in their environment. In school, they learn academically and sometimes, they compete with each other. On the other hand, school is also a place where they can meet friends, acquaintances, and sometimes, the Draco Malfoy. If you're reading Harry Potter, you'll get my point.

There are also some instances wherein we learn something new, not being taught by our teachers. These are the lessons that we learn through our experiences, from the reality. And from these experiences, we might make mistakes, but we can learn from them.

Recently, I learned something new. These lessons, I learned outside school. I would like to share them with you:

1. Two weeks ago, I had the chance to ride the LRT and MRT with my blockmates Ocha, Cheska and Sab. It was fun, but it was tiring too. We went to Greenhills to visit an exclusive pre-school.

Lessons Learned:
Be careful and be street-smart when riding these public vehicles. There are "bad people" around who'll be tempted to get something from you like cellphones and wallets so keep them inside your trustworthy bags. Be observant.

2. I tried "uwian" this week, and I swear, I wouldn't do it again. It was very, very tiring. Now, I convinced myself that I will stay in dorm for three days, Mondays- Thursdays. So my "uwian" plan will not push through.

Lessons Learned:
Stay in the dorm. It is much better.

3. I asked some teachers, who I know, to answer my survey last weekend. Instead of doing it during the day, I went to their houses during the night. Although they were accomodating to me, I was really, really guilty because I made "abala".

Lessons Learned:
Don't procrastinate so you won't bother anyone. Be on time.

4. I made a very big mistake. I should have looked and checked at my personal settings before I do anything else. "Nakakahiya talaga."

Lessons Learned:
Be careful.

Before I do my mini-thesis in Englcom, I just realized something:

We should not blame ourselves when what we do, what we think, or what we have planned don't work out. Don't ever think that there's something wrong with you. We make mistakes because we're not perfect, and it's just normal. You can't turn back the time to make what we have done perfectly right. Past is past. All you have to do is learn from it, so you won't do the same mistake again. Be careful. Don't ever think that you're alone too, because there are people who can help and support you--- your family and friends and God. It's not the end of the world! Think positive! And hey, what is life without challenges, right? That's life. You can do it. I believe in you. =)

Saturday, June 30, 2007

Too Bad to be Good

Because I love ice cream, chocolates, and other cold beverages and foods, I developed a sore throat last Monday. When night came, I didn't feel well so I wasn't able to study seriously for our psychology quiz. What mattered to me during that time was to rest and sleep.

I didn't have a "I-feel-good-ta-na-na-na-nan" feeling this week. My sore throat was gone, then a very bad cold came, and very bad cough followed, then my sore throat returned. Because of them, my whole week wasn't that happy.


Right now, I'm at home. I'm supposed to finish my survey questions for our "mini-thesis" in Englcom. Unfortunately, I don't feel well. On the other hand, I'm quite fortunate as well because I'm at home. I can rest. I need rest. Haha.


Okay, that's all for today. I have a lot to do tomorrow. I'll go back to school for our NSTP. Wish me luck, and I hope that my "slight fever" will not push through. Our midterms are next week. Huhu. Good night! =)


*By the way, I didn't see Enchong Dee in school today. Sad. Haha. Anyway, I hope to see him in school soon. Haha.*

Friday, June 29, 2007

Confessions of a Certified Homesick Iyakin

At last! I already finished our EdTech project! I should have been sleeping right now but I decided to update my blog. So here I am.

Since the start of the first day of school, I've been thinking about a lot of things. I have so many reflective thinkings that sometimes, they drive me nuts. There are times that I feel confused, and then I end up breaking down into tears. I know I shouldn't be acting like this, but I can't help it. Well, I guess it's normal for a student like me who stays in a dorm and living away from the family. Honestly, I'm not that really adjusted...yet. I always anticipate the coming of Friday afternoon because it is the day when Auntie Lucy comes to the dorm to fetch me. On the other hand, my hyper-activeness becomes lesser when Monday comes. It's not because it is Monday, if you know what I mean. I don't like Mondays that much because it means leaving away from home again.


My parents and Auntie Lucy never fail to tell me, every week, that I would be adjusted someday. I just look at them. Then I begin to "propose" my plan about going "uwian". We always have "mini-conferences" about it. They give me their point and I give them mine. It is like a game. I always lose and they always win.

As I reflect and think about my points and reasons why I like to go home, I suddenly realize that my so-called "good reasons" are just for my own benefit. I want to come up with good reasons which can be beneficial not only for myself but for others as well. Too bad, it's hard.

Anyway, it is God's will, right? He knows what's best for me. He has good reasons why He gave me the chance to study in La Salle and to stay in a dorm. Although, I'm still feeling homesick, I would accept the reality. I should be thankful for that. Who knows, maybe someday, I could be adjusted (I really hope so) or maybe my whole eternal "uwian" plan/wish would come true. Oh well, I'll just keep my fingers crossed. Have a blessed day!!!

Friday, June 08, 2007

Dalawa in One

Ang Buhay Kolehiyo

Isang linggo na rin ang nakalipas simula nang mag-umpisa ang unang araw ng pasukan sa La Salle. Dahil ako ay nagmula sa isang paaralan na puro kababaihan ang mga mag-aaral, ako ay naninibago sa bagong lugar na aking kinabibilangan ngayon. Marami- rami na rin akong nakikilalang mga bagong kaibigan at marahil, sila ay madaragdagan pa sa paglipas ng panahon.


Isang napakalaking pagbabago para sa akin ang pagpasok sa buhay kolehiyo. Ito ay masaya ngunit mahirap. Masaya dahil tulad ng sinabi ko, maraming mga kaibigan ang makikilala, ngunit mahirap din dahil kailangang magsikap ng mabuti sa pag-aaral.


Ang buhay kolehiyo ay tulad ng pag-akyat sa isang napakataas na hagdan. Kung hindi mo ito aakyatin, hindi ka makakarating sa iyong pupuntahan.

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Andrew Building Hiking

My blockmates and I were at the library, located at the second floor of Andrew Building, studying for child foundation. Then suddenly, we realized that we only had 20 minutes left before the child foundation class. We stopped and waited for the elevator. Since the elevator had many students when it opened, we had no choice but to climb up the stairs from second floor to seventeenth floor. It was exhausting! All of us felt that our "pata" (legs in short...hahaha) hurt. Fortunately, we arrived on time, but didn't have the opportunity to drink even water because Sir Lem already entered the room. And then, he announced that there was no quiz at all. Whew!

Saturday, May 12, 2007

Sleep Over

I had my very first sleep over at my best friend's house in Lipa this week. I stayed there for two days. I was so glad when my parents and my auntie granted my "wish" to stay and sleep there, knowing that Lipa's miles away from Laguna. I had fun with my best friend, her cute little sister, and with the people whom I met within their compound.

Although we didn't go out to go somewhere, like hanging-out in the mall or watching a movie like we used to, we enjoyed being "home buddies". We played with her little sister, watched their favorite TV shows, read Candy magazines, called some old friend of ours through mobile phone, ate ice cream, and laughed like there's no tomorrow at all. Hahaha. We even stayed up late and slept at around past 1 o'clock in the morning talking and sharing about some stuff.

Even if I'm just "five hours away" from my bestfriend, and even if we'll still see each other tomorrow in DLSU, I already miss her...and her cute little sister...and Lipa...a lot. How I wish to go back there again! Then we'll laugh again and again and again. Hahahaha.

To my best friend, and to all the people whom I met during my stay there, thank you very much for making me feel at home and for your genuine hospitality!




***These are the pictures taken during my two-day stay in Lipa***
















Wednesday, May 09, 2007

College Na!

Ilang araw na lang, college na ako. Ang bilis talaga ng panahon, parang kailan lang. Hindi ko pa rin lubos maisip na maiiwanan ko ang aking pamilya dito sa Laguna upang tumira at mag-aral sa lungsod ng Maynila. Masayang malungkot. Masaya dahil natupad din ang aking pangarap na makapag-aral sa Maynila, sa La Salle, at makakasama ko muli ang iba kong mga kaibigan/kamag-aral...ngunit malungkot dahil hindi ko na makakasama ang aking pamilya. Pero, talagang ganyan ang buhay. Sabi nga sa akin nila Auntie, masasanay din ako. At hindi lang naman ako ang makakaranas ng ganito dahil pati ang aking mga makakasama ay ganoon din.

Kanina lamang ay tinitingnan ko ang mapa ng La Salle. Isang napakalaking unibersidad. Napakaraming mga gusali. Naisip ko tuloy, hindi kaya ako maligaw sa aking mga klase? Tapos, bigla ko rin na naisip, naku! kaya nga may orientation eh! hahaha...ikaw talaga!

Ganyan ako...may pagka-weirdo minsan. Hahaha.

Ngunit, kahit na ako ay masayang-malungkot, ako ay excited na rin sa darating na orientation at pasukan. May mga makikilala akong muli na mga taong may iba-iba't ugali, personalidad at maging kultura. Madaragdagan muli ang aking listahan. Sa bagay, masaya rin un.

Saturday, May 05, 2007

Reunion



Still fresh from the reunion last Sunday, April 29, I can't help but look at the photos I took that day. How my smile widens whenever I see my former classmates' faces in my digital camera. Everyone looks amazing, happy, and bubbly.

I had fun being with my MSMSI batchmates. I was so surprised and happy when I saw them again. Four years had passed since I last saw them. There were a lot of changes in them, (physically..haha..) but they were still the ones I knew way back gradeschool. Although most of them grew even taller, and I felt more even smaller...hahaha... our pakikitungo sa isa't- isa didn't change. I was very very happy for that.

Ailil, Rg, Nika, Thesa, Chia, Alain, Mark Ian, Elijay, Alex, Alissa, Adrian, Insan Joven, Sceiy, Judith, Betsy, Alyssa, John, Pau, Chris Ann, Rin-rin, Paolo, Kenneth, Marielle, Teacher Rose, Teacher Lyn, Teacher Sol, Rap-rap, Mhillie and James...thank you very much for making my day so meaningful, wonderful, and colorful!!!


I hope to see you guys soon!!! I will miss you too!!!

Sunday, April 29, 2007

My La Salle Dream

I opened my e-mail a while ago and was surprised to see my cousins' e-mails for me. I e-mailed them last week to spread my so-called "good news". I promised them to keep in touch through e-mail because we're "oceans apart". Anyway, I was so happy that we get to share about ourselves even just through e-mails. That was the wonder of modern technology.


Anyway, I didn't update my blog to write about e-mails and the wonders of modern technology. I wanted to write something about my dream--- my La Salle dream. It came true.


Not passing my first choice in La Salle was one of the greatest and most sad moments of my life. I may sound exaggerated, but it was true. I cried the whole night when I learned that I didn't pass my first choice (biology), although I expected it. As far as my memory was concerned, I guessed almost all the questions on the test paper because I was totally unprepared, thanks to Milenyo, the killer typhoon. However, I passed my third choice which was early childhood education so it was okay. Hooray!

I looked like a complete baboon when I jumped inside the Admissions' office when I realized that I passed my third choice. I gave two thumbs-up to Ate Rosie and to Sceiy and I didn't care if there was an extremely cute guy, who saw what I did. At least, I made him smile..haha.

I texted everyone to spread the "good news". They all said they were happy for me because I got accepted. They even said, "Sabi sa iyo eh, kaya mo 'yan". I made it, and I did it...but this wouldn't be possible without them and God. They gave me the inspiration to be strong. They helped me. And I thanked them. I mean it.


Since La Salle is trimester, I only have few days left to enjoy my vacation. This coming May, I would be busy running back and forth to Taft to enroll, to have my medical and dental check-up, to have my Id picture taken and to attend my two-day orientation. In three weeks or four, I would be moving to my dorm and on May 23, it will be the start of our classes. It makes me feel sad, but it also makes me feel good because my La Salle dream has come true. Like what Audrey said, "Ate Dana, LASALISTA ka na!". Oh yeah!

Saturday, April 14, 2007

"Too Many Good-byes"

If you were fond of reading Sweet Valley Junior High series of Francine Pascal, you might get the reason why I put quotations in my title. But if you're not, okay, I'll explain. "Too Many Good-byes" is actually the title of one of the series. I've read it more than twice, and it is a very old resident in my book shelf, (I got it when I was 11 years old) together with my Nancy Drews, Harry Potters and other novels. Why am I telling you these? Because, my topic today is about good-byes..."too many good-byes".


Three weeks have passed since our graduation. All of us were afraid, my classmates and me. Yes, we were afraid to let go of each other. We were afraid to face the reality that we may not see each other next school year. We loved and respected each other. We liked each other's company. We cried of course. Although we were afraid to say good-bye that day, we were also brave enough to go one step further...one step further towards our goals and dreams.

Four days have passed too, since Mikee left for States. Well, she's one of my beloved cousin/niece. I miss her, really. It's sad and painful to say good bye to her, but we need to move on, right? Maybe, we are ocean's apart now, but I'm still grateful because we still have communication. I can still feel her presence, even if she's very far away.

Good-bye St.Scho, good-bye classmates, good-bye friends, good-bye teachers, good-bye highschool life...


Yes, there were too many good-byes but those good-byes don't mean really "good-bye" because we will see each other again. We don't know when, only time can tell, but I'm looking forward to that day...I'm looking forward to seeing them again. Maybe, when that day comes, we are all professionals and successful and even married and have our own families! Hahaha. Well, I'm really getting excited now. Hahaha. And oh, before I forget, the first thing that I will do when I see them again, I will hug them and say, "I missed you..very, very much!".


Have a great summer everyone!!!

Monday, March 19, 2007

Just Taking a Look

After my exam at St. Scho Manila yesterday, my aunt took me to Tahilan, the dorm, which our family friend recommended to us. Well, it's beautiful. The staff were so nice, friendly and accomodating. They let me feel at home, even if we're just there to obeserve and take a look at the place. I even met some of the "residents" there.

Honestly, I like the place. I'm looking forward to staying there if ever I pass St. Scho or DLSU. I want to meet new people. I feel that I'm beginning to come out of my shell, which is good.

My classmates Joy, Jalvin, Mela and Marita were there too, in Taft. They were also looking for a dorm where they could stay. I'm happy to hear that they found one near St. Scho. That means, we could spend some time together every weekends.

BUT, I still have to look at the dorm above the Yellowcab pizza in Taft. That is recommended by a family friend too. I need to see the place...but when? I don't know...

I'm excited. I'm happy. I wonder what the future is preparing for me...

Saturday, March 17, 2007

A Fun Week

I had fun this week with my classmates. Although we had physics classes to complete some "legal" requirements, we still had fun.

My classmates are the ones who make my highschool life complete. Without them, it wouldn't be so much meaningful and colorful. Here are some pictures of us taken this week while we do nothing...haha.



From left upward: With Gem, Mica; Joy, Dana, and Kay; Kay and Dana with Joy at the back; Karmin, Mikee, Betsy; With Camille; With Katkat; Dana, Mau, Joan, Tiffy and Ekai; Dana, Jalvin, Judith and Sceiy. (Taken last St. Humbeline's Feastday and ordinary class day.)

Tuesday, March 13, 2007

Nakakapanghinayang

"Nakakapanghinayang." Ito ang salitang aking nasambit sa aking sarili nang makita ko ang liham para sa akin mula sa Unibersidad ng Pilipinas. Ilang puntos na lang, pasado na ako. Talagang nakakapanghinayang. Isa sa mga pangarap ko ang makapasa sa UP dahil ito ay isang karangalan lalo na sa mag-aaral na katulad ko. Marami ang nabibigyan ng pagkakataon na makakuha ng pagsusulit doon, ngunit iilan lamang ang nakakapasa [roon]. At ako ay kabilang sa mga mapalad na hindi nakapasa sa nasabing unibersidad.

Ako ay muling nanghinayang nang makita ko ang resulta ng aking pagsusulit sa Filipino. Ako ay nakapasa. Mabuti naman at ako ay nagpapasalamat. Ngunit, dahil hindi ako naging maingat sa pagsasagot, ako ay nagkaroon ng limang mali. Kung ako ay naging maingat, mas mataas na marka sana ang aking nakuha. Kung binasa ko ng maigi ang mga nakasulat sa papel, hindi sana ako magkakamali. Sana, sana, sana. Lagi nalang sana.

Ang lahat ng ito ay nakalipas na. Hindi na maibabalik. Wala na akong magagawa. Ngunit, sayang pa rin.

Kaya ako ay nangako sa aking sarili, pagbubutihan ko na sa susunod. Magiging maingat na ako upang hindi na muli ako manghinayang.

Paalam at magandang gabi sa inyong lahat!

Saturday, March 10, 2007

A Realization about Life's Journey

"God understands that we are not strong all the time. Sometimes, all we can do is rest on His arms as He takes us thru life's journey."

Isn't that quote meaningful? Simple yet deep. It is quite related with what I'm experiencing right now. I, together with my classmates, am preparing for such an important event in our lives--- our graduation. We are all taking a new step to our future. We are slowly entering the next chapter of our lives...

The quote saying is true. We are not strong all the time, and God knows and understands it. There are times when we don't trust ourselves and we feel wasted, down and bad. We feel pressured because there are people who expect a lot from us. And yet, we succeed. Sometimes, we keep asking ourselves, paano nangyari 'yon?

For the past sixteen years of living happily and lively here on the planet earth, I realized that as we take this long, long journey called life, God is always here with us. Although, we can't see Him, His presence is within us. He continues to guide us, wherever we go. He helps us in every decision that we make. Remember Footprints in the Sand? That proves it.

So let us not say that God doesn't love us. He loves us. Period.

And now, as the end of March is fast approaching, I'm ready to face what the future is preparing for me...for us...for my fellow highschool seniors. I'm ready to take every step that leads towards my dream. I will not be afraid, because I know that I can pass every obstacle that will come my way. And God is holding my hand, protecting me as He takes me "thru life's journey".
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By the way, I got my form from DLSU. This is another chance. I will grab it, and not let it slip. My only hopes are my grades and the admissions' decision. I wish I could make it.

Saturday, February 17, 2007

I call this day "The Day"

Today is Friday. It is one of the days of the week that I like best because it means weekend, and when it is weekend, it means rest, play, watch t.v., and gala. This Friday is so special because today is the cheering competition and sports fest of ABS or Association of the Benedictine Schools held in Pampanga. Of course, our school, St. Scho, belongs to that group because it is indeed a Benedictine school. St. Scho is the twin sister of St. Benedict, remember? Anyway, besides the cheering and the sports fest, today is also the card-giving day. Card-giving day means half-day, and when it means half-day, it means excellent and cool. Hahaha.

Since more than half of our classmates are in Pampanga, we are only 13 in the classroom. So "many". We just did some seatwork, research work and OSB with the teachers. By the way, OSB means over-sa-bonding. So Benedictine!

I remember that I feel some butterflies are flying inside my tummy whenever I think about my card grades. Unfortunately, my father and auntie weren't able to come in school to get my card so somebody in the family just got it instead-- my cousin. I feel nervous because I imagine that my grades became lower, since I was not satisfied with my periodical exam results in Math, CLE, Economics and Filipino. Haaay. I just keep my keep my fingers crossed and expect for the worst, not the best.

Until...

I just received two good news today. These news really made me very happy. I even jumped and jumped and jumped and jumped. Here they are:
1. The basketball varsity of our school won the two basketball games. According to Sceiy's dad, it's a history. Anyway, I'm so proud of them. Go, go, go Westgrove!!!!!

2. I saw my card grades. Yeah, right. My Filipino, Economics, THE (home eco), and MAPEH
grades are lower..only 2-3 points, but still, lower. And I expected these. On the other hand, with so much surprise, my CLE, English, Physics, Catechism and Homeroom grades became higher. My math grade is still the same. Fair enough. My conduct also became VG. Really surprising...hahaha... I was "noisy" this third quarter...hahaha...anyway, my average got higher... that's why. Again, really surprising. Expect the unexpected. Thank you, God!!!!

Friday...one of the best days of the week...and yet I'm looking forward to tomorrow... I will go to DLSU- Manila...I have a "mission"...wish me luck...thank you very much...

This is "The Day"...and it is a wrap.


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Thursday, February 15, 2007

Since it is the month of love...

"Love is everywhere" again. Hearts and cupids are commonly seen in malls and other public places. Flowers, chocolates and teddy bears are almost sold out in stores. Couples gather together as they hold hands and exchange sweet emotions. Love songs are played on different radio stations. Wow, everybody is getting "mushy" and all that, if you know what I mean.

Yesterday, Joy, Ell, and I ate at the canteen. We were talking about being sleepy, specially during CLE, and other school stuff...until Joy asked Ell if she has a crush...and then Ell asked me if I have a boyfriend. Stunned, I answered, "None!". Honestly, during that time, I was really speechless...

And yet there's another one. At the library a while ago, my physics groupmates and me went there for some researching about heat transfer. As I was reading about conduction, I heard some of my groupmates talking about boyfriends and dates. Then suddenly, Marita shared something about her encounter with my quince partner. (Quince is the short term for Quincenera. It's like a prom.) She told me that he greeted her when he saw her at SM. Oh no, not again! Not about guys again!!!

Since I entered senior year, I always hear some of my classmates talk about boys. It's really surprising because they're not like that before. It's natural for girls our age talk about something like boys. And maybe, that means they're beginning to "bloom" like a flower under the sun-lit sky. In fact, some of them already have had boyfriends.

Sometimes, I wonder, how come they experience that? How about me? Well, maybe it is not yet the time, and I'm not ready for such a commitment. I'm still sixteen...and there are still time for it...a lot of time, actually. Why hurry, right?
*Happy Valentines!!!!!*
***For Pedro and Juan, Happy Valentines!!!***
**Enjoy this day...**
*Well, I know you do.*
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Friday, February 09, 2007

Happy and Sad

I'm having the best times of my life in school these past few days. The classes are shortened period because we have to practice for two hours every afternoon before dismissal for our field demo on Family Day. I fool around with some of my classmates and exchange jokes with them (actually, those jokes are kind of corny..haha). I have a "band practice" in our service maybe twice a week with my servicemates, Janelle and Audrey, and sometimes with Mikee. (Janelle-the vocalist, Audrey-the drummer, Mikee-the bassist, Dana- the guitarist...kuno...we still don't have the name but we have a manager, Carla, our grade three cousin...haha...) I pretend to play the guitar because I really don't know how to play that musical instrument although I can read the chords. And, I get to laugh a lot because I'm enjoying the company of my classmates.

This week, I'm looking forward to weekend because I'm going to Quezon City. Perhaps, it will be my second home from now on. I will stay there every weekend because my dear Auntie Lucy is recovering from her sickness. My trips to Quezon City will only stop as soon as she's fully recovered and ready to come back home in Calamba.

I'm sad because she's not staying here (in Calamba), even if it's only temporary. The house seems empty without her. It's like something is missing. I miss her, really. She's like my mother because I grew up with her. Auntie Sari always tells me that I need not to worry because she's going to be fine...that she's going back to her old self--- the healthy and cheerful Auntie Lucy.

I'm thankful to those people who pray hard for her recovery. The latest news that I heard is that she's gaining appetite. That's good news for me.
Anyway, before I end this entry, the band Hale (composed of Champ, Sheldon, Roll and Omni) will perform on our Family Day on the eleventh day of February. If you're interested to watch them, you are invited to come. Thank you. =)

*I wish Spongecola will perform too, but they are not...sad.*

*Advance Happy Valentines!!!*

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Wednesday, February 07, 2007

How I Wish...

I have wishes that I want to come true. Yes, I do hope they will. These wishes give me hope, so I could fulfill my dreams. Here are some of my wishes:
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* I wish that my dear Auntie Lucy will recover as soon as possible from her sickness. Honestly, I miss her very much. I always look forward to visiting her in Manila every weekend. Whoever reads this blog, please help me pray for her...thank you.
* I wish that my DLSU and UST reports won't have conflicts. It is my dream to study in DLSU to pursue my early childhood education course. On the other hand, I also want to pursue my undergraduate degree in Biology because it's Biology. It's not just any course..it's Biology, people! Waaa...Biology!!!
*I wish that God will help me to make the right decisions.
* I wish that my last two months in St. Scho will be much better. I'm actually really enjoying the company of my classmates. I love them. =)
* I wish that my grades are the same as last quarter. I have this funny feeling that they become lower this third quarter. I hope I'm wrong, really.
* I wish that the candidates for the next May elections will really do their plans for our country, whatever they are and not just keep on promising. Our country needs statesmen (by the way, not politician) who are responsible and willing to change the status of the country. (Wow! Haha)
* I wish to find and buy an original DVD of Princess Hours...haha...
* I wish to see Spongecola again and again and again and again and again and again and again. =)
* I wish to be a good writer...hahaha....
* Lastly, I wish that my dreams will come true!!!
* I wish you all the best Ms. Whenn... Happy Birthday!!! =)



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Monday, January 29, 2007

It is Not Yet the End...

The first month of the year had not been really good to me. In fact, I cried almost everyday. Why? Because I already got the results of my entrance exams from the four schools which I applied for college. Really, they were surprising.

Honestly, I didn't pass Ateneo and UP, thank you very much. The news of not passing those schools really made me sad. Because of that, I developed low self-esteem again. I felt I was stupid for not passing them. I wished to go back to the past to correct my mistakes. But it's too late. What made me feel more stupid was the course that I applied for which was Biology. I suddenly realized that it's a quota course and only a certain number of students are accepted for it. I wished I chose the course which was non-quota so I could pass the test then shift to the course that I really wanted afterwards. Again, it was too late. I didn't have the time machine to go back to the past. I didn't have the watch, which Travis received from the mysterious man, to change everything. (By the way, that's from Sana Maulit Muli, a primetime show on ABS-CBN) I felt depressed for more than a week, and I brought that depression in school, when we came back there after the Christmas vacation.

As I was thinking about these "failures", I realized that it was not yet the end. Maybe, God gave me these because he had better plans for me. It was hard to accept failures in the first place, but I had to. These made me stronger. I began to develop a higher self-esteem, which was good. I began to trust myself.

Yesteday, I went to De La Salle Manila. I asked about the results of my examination. The admissions told me that my GNP, whatever it was, was good. I got an 88. Mathematics and the Mental Ability Test were the "suspects" why I didn't pass my first choice (Biology). They didn't reach a certain grade. I accepted Math, because it was expected but Mental Ability Test? Pleeaase!!! I even joked Joy, my dear friend and my dear classmate, that I came from the Mental Hospital and forgot to drink my medicine so it's understandable. Hahaha. But, before I left the admissions building of De La Salle Manila, I felt good. The admissions office was giving me a consideration because they saw my eagerness to study there. The people there told me to visit their website, which I usually do, to be informed so I could complete the requirements that I need.

God gave me this opportunity to start again, to trust myself again. He was giving me the ray of hope. I have 50-50% chance of passing DLSU, but at least, there's still a chance. Maybe, He gave this because he knew how eager I am to study there. On my way to Quiapo, I received text messages from my classmates saying that I passed UST. I passed my first course which was Biology and I was wait-listed in my second course, which was Pre-Com (commerce). I thanked God for he's so good.

It's not yet the end. Don't give up. I can do it. It's just the beginning...