Red Flag Alert

There is something unsual to me this week. I've been acting so strange lately and it bothers me a lot. When I'm reporting or explaining something, whether in class or in a simple conversation, I stutter. Also, there are times when I feel that what I'm saying has no sense at all. Because of this, I guess some people raise their eyebrows or nod their heads because they don't understand what I'm trying to say. In a student's term, I'm in a soup mode (or more famously known as the "sabaw" mode). And it's not good. It's not that I'm being "crazy" like Britney. Auntie says I only lack sleep, that's why. I guess she's right. But how can I sleep early if there are a lot of school works all piled up? (since I entered highschool, 12 midnight is still early for me) You know, I need to catch up to reach my target grades, which are from 3.0-4.0 (ambitious, yes). I should be dead serious when it comes to academics now. I have to focus more! Focus!! Focus!!!

So this is the reason why I'm waving my red flag. And I'm missing my bestfriend. We haven't seen each other for more than two weeks. I have a lot of stories to share with her. *sigh* ('_')

The Challenge

I'm not supposed to go home in Laguna today, but here I am. As usual, I have a lot of school work to do, but I'm almost done. However, I still feel bad because of my first reflection paper. I didn't realize that our professor in this class wanted to read some experiences and insights from us that are related to our topics. She was not satisfied with what I wrote there. So for the second reflection paper, I really thought about what to write, and I even shared some experiences I've had. I slept at around past 1 am because I read and reviewed it. And just a while ago [in this class], I had another soup moment while my groupmates and I were reporting. It seemed like I didn't know what I was saying. After the reporting, I wanted to cry.

Actually, I feel afraid too for the reason that I'm not satisfied with the results I get from her class. Did I mention about the other classes as well? As you all know, I don't want to fail any of the subjects I'm taking up in school, most specially the major ones. One day, I talked to Danielle and shared with her my thoughts regarding school. Once again, I had a meaningful converstaion with her. I was surprised to know that she also finds our school works hard and yet, challenging. I thought about what she said and reflected on it, and I agreed with her in a way. I realized that the school works may be hard but they're challenging too since they enable us to use our minds to think critically. So when it comes to school stuff, I talk to her because she says things that make sense. I like it because I learn something from it. In addition to that, she always looks on the positive side. Her point of view about the good side of life somehow gives me a ray of hope. Go Danielle! v(",)v

So there. From now on, I would take every school work as a challenge and the pressure it gives me as a motivation for me to strive harder for the better. v('',)v

Good night everyone! v(",)v

Oh No! Oh Yes!

Oh no! I'm not yet finished with our online task for EDUTEC2. I've been infront of the laptop screen for more than two hours and I haven't figured out how to use variables and if statements in Flash MX. I'm in the panic mode right now because this online task is due tomorrow at exactly 8:00 AM. And I'm not a computer expert. What am I going to do? Naiiyak na ako!!! *cry-cry-sob-sob* On the other hand, I guess it is my fault too. I should have written what our professor said last Wednesday. I'm currently relying to the websites that has something to do with this topic (and Mau 1o minutes ago).

Oh yes! I feel that I'm going to repeat EDUTEC2 next year. Good luck to me, really. Bahala na si Batman. Oh well, I have to go and pack my clothes for the whole school week. Bye! v(",)v

Kailangan Pa Bang Mangyari Ito?

Noong Biyernes, masayang-masaya ako dahil nakasama ko ulit ang aking mga pinsan. Sa pagkakataong ito, kami ay kumpleto. Bihira lang ito mangyari dahil sila ay nakatira sa iba't-ibang panig ng daigdig tulad ng Hong Kong, Canada, San Francisco, Los Angeles, at Florida. Ngunit, sa kasamaang palad, kaya sila nakauwi (kasama ang iba ko pang mga tiyo at tiya) rito sa Pilipinas ay dahil sa sumakabilang buhay na ang aking tiya na si Auntie Edy. Dahil dito, minsan, naiisip ko, kailangan pa bang may isang miyembro ng aming pamilya ang mawala upang kami ay maging kumpleto? Sa kabila ng lahat ng ito, nagawa pa naming kumain ng masasarap na pagkain tulad ng sisig sa Gerry's Grill sa Quezon City bago kami bumalik sa Mt. Carmel. Isa ito sa mga araw na hindi ko makakalimutan.

Kanina, inihatid na namin sa huling hantungan si Auntie Edy. Nakakalungkot isipin na wala na siya sa amin at hindi na makakapiling sa mga darating na taon at mahahalagang okasyon. Subalit, bigla kong napagtanto na nakakabuti na rin ito dahil kapiling na niya ang Maykapal. Alam ko na masaya na siya kung saan man siya naroroon, kasama ang mga anghel at ang iba pa naming mga mahal sa buhay na nauna na. At higit sa lahat, hindi na siya makakaranas ng anumang paghihirap na sanhi ng kanyang karamdaman.

Ngayon lang ako nakadama ng matinding pagkakalungkot lalo na nang bumalik papuntang Maynila ang aking mga pinsan. Kulang ang kalahating araw na magkakasama kami. Marami pa kaming mga dapat gawin upang mapunan ang mga panahong hindi namin kapiling ang isa't-isa. Maghihintay na nanaman muli ako ng ilang taon upang mangyari ulit ito. Pero sana, maging kumpleto kami dahil sa magagandang okasyon tulad ng Pasko at Bagong Taon at hindi sa paraang...ganito.

Hindi ko lang alam kung napansin niyo na ako ay nagsulat sa wikang Filipino. Kung alam niyo lang, naubusan ako ng wikang Ingles kanina habang kinakausap ko ang aking mga pinsan. Sige, tawa lang. Mas natawa ako nang nalaman ko na ang isa sa kanila ay mahusay palang magsalita at umintindi ng Filipino. Naku, nagpakahirap pa akong mag-isip ng mga sasabihin sa kanya. Sa totoo lang, na "nose-bleed" (siyempre, sarcastic at exaggerated ito...haha) ako habang nakikipag-usap sa kanila.

On a more serious note, Auntie Edy, we will miss you. We love you! God loves you!

*I'm going back to my business. School work, here I come. I hope I could finish my flash animation online task and the others by tomorrow. Wish me luck. By the way, Cente, I'm looking forward to watching another movie with you and your laptop. v(",)v*

There is a Time for Everything

It's funny when people ask me if I have "someone special" in my life at present. I don't know why they keep on asking me this kind of question. They don't even believe me when I say, "I don't have". They say it is impossible since I study in a co-ed school, where there are a lot of cute and good looking guys around. They even make predictions that there is someone who is courting me at the moment. HAHA. They really make me laugh.

Most of my friends are in this kind of situation right now. They are in the kilig stage and I'm actually happy for them. There are times when I tease them too. Oh, it is fun teasing those friends of mine who are in love, inspired, and floating with the clouds! Sometimes, honestly, I'm thinking about that too. I'm wondering how it feels like having someone who treats me as a special person in his life. I hope you get what I mean when I say his treatment is different from the treatment that my family is giving me. Okay, that sounds redundant. v(",)v

Am I ready?

As a teenager, I'm fond of buying magazines like Candy. I learn a lot from the magazine because like my family, it gives me enough reasons on how to be confident with myself and on how to adjust to teenage life. Moreover, it gives me tips on how to dress appropriately. Haha. Anyway, in the June issue, I got curious so I took the quiz about if I'm ready to have a special someone (I'm sorry if I keep on saying "special someone"). Well, I answered mostly letter Bs and the result is so true. Let me quote and share with you what the Candy team says:

"You're in love with the idea of having a boyfriend, but you aren't sure you're ready for the complications of a relationship. You like the thought of holding hands and bumping into your crush, but you're scared of anything beyond that. Chill! You're young and you don't need to rush getting together with anyone. When the time is right, you'll fall in love--- and you won't be scared to!"

Please let me stop at this point and end this one by saying that I'm not in a hurry to fall in love. I'm still young and I need to learn more about life. Marami pa akong dapat i-enjoy sa buhay ko bilang isang seventeen-year-old. Ayaw ko na tumulad sa iba na nagseseryoso na pagdating sa mga relasyon na ganito. It doesn't matter if my friends have a special someone and I don't, because I believe that the "perfect guy" for me will come someday. Darating din ako sa stage na iyan, kaya huwag kayong mag-alala. Like what the bible passage says, there is a time for everything. v(",)v

P.S. What about the crushes? Having a crush on someone is natural. It is not as deep as love. It is only, like what the elders say, the puppy love. v(",)v

First Round Hang-Over

I am not a fan of basketball. When the people around me talk about the Lakers, Celtics, or NBA, I feel that I belong in another planet. I can't relate to what they're talking about, so I end up being on my own, wandering around in my own little world. I'd rather read a book than watch a basketball game, until UAAP came into my life and everything has changed. The rest, as they say, is history.

Whenever DLSU has a game, I would find myself swimming in a sea of green. Everybody in school wears green or that ever famous Animoism shirts. Wherever I go, I could hear some students say, "Are you going to watch the game?" or "I want to be dismissed early so I could buy tickets!". These are the usual scenes that one would see every UAAP season in school. And when a basketball player is visible around the campus, people (mostly girls) can't help but stare at them, giggling, and whispering to each other. Well, we've been through these because we're used to seeing some of them everyday, and what matters to us right now is our studies, right? v(",)v But, when we have a free time, we try to buy tickets as much as possible so we could watch a game live (especially the DLSU vs. ADMU game).

Because of UAAP, I'm learning to like basketball. Although I don't really know the rules on how to play the game, I'd still cheer for our team. I jump and wave the green flag along with others when JV Casio and his fellow Archers shoot the ball. Nevertheless, I feel bad when the other team scores.

Last Sunday, as we all know, La Salle lost to Ateneo---again. Anyway, it always happen every first round. There would still be a lot more La Salle vs. Ateneo games in the future. Oh well, let us hope for the best. May the best team win! v(",)v

First Entry for July

First of all, I would like to congratulate UP and Ateneo for winning their first round against NU and La Salle respectively. It is a pretty good start for UP since the Maroons have just broken last season's record. On the contrary, I hope La Salle would win the next round. Of course, I'm a little bit biased because I''m an Archer. Haha.

I'm currently at the second floor cybernook of Andrew Building. To tell you the truth, I feel like I'm going to freeze anytime soon. The place is so cold and I don't have my jacket with me. I think that the coldness of the surrounding makes me clueless at the moment because I can't think of anything to say. And my hands are becoming stiff, I couldn't type faster. Haha.

Anyway, I have to go. We have class at 9:40 AM at the 17th floor and we don't want to be late because of the elevator traffic. Haha. Have a nice day! v(",)v

*I hope I could post something with sense next time. Happy Birthday to Cheska and Keithy! See you! v(",)v*